Random update :)

Sometimes I wonder if I'm falling for my best friend. I think I might be getting my hopes up since he recently told me that he's bisexual. We even kissed the other day and convinced a girl who seems to like me that we're dating. She still thinks so. Honestly, pretending he was my boyfriend was exciting for me. It felt good. And I don't know what I'd do without him in my life.

I saw this kid working in a Hastings coffee shop and couldn't stop looking at him. He was built, roughly 5'8 5'9, short curly neat haircut and long groomed beard, and he had a Christmas sweater on. So hot. Haha I wanted to tell him that I liked his sweater but he was busy in the back, so i left.
And tonight, at work, I saw a tall guy with a beard and long hair tied up in a bun. He was playing and getting all excited over the snow and it was adorable. He said he really liked my hair :3 It feels nice to finally be letting myself like who I like. I feel so much more authentic than I ever have before.

I've just been thinking about myself as queer lately but I still get constant thoughts about how if I could choose, I'd pick a woman's body over mine, any day. Not sure what that means for me anymore. I haven't really been feeling uncomfortable in my own gender, although it's not something I enjoy. I don't like it but I don't hate it.

Sumerian Records is talking about a kickass tour with some original top notch acts. After the Burial, Veil of Maya, and Born of Osiris. There's supposed to be two other bands joining. I found out at work and nearly had a meltdown. I will for sure travel for that.