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Inside my mind. :/

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  1. Canterpiece

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    So I keep having these sort of conversations with myself,for simplicity I'll give them names, how about Miss. Q and Miss Z?

    Usually it goes like this:

    Z: What if you're really just straight and just really confused?

    Q: pfft, I doubt that.

    Z: You never know.

    Q: I think I do, thanks.

    Z: But what if you're just really picky about guys?

    Q: Think about it, when was your last crush on a guy?

    Z: well, umm.... never really.

    Q:See?

    Z:Hey! It could happen!

    Q: Yeah, but it's not that likely is it? and even if I did, so what?

    Z: It'd mean you'd be normal.

    Q: If by "normal" you mean "straight" then no it wouldn't, It'd make me bisexual.

    Z: It's an improvement.

    Q: That's implying there's something wrong with me.

    Z:There is.

    Q:No there isn't.

    Z: You're a girl, and you're attracted to girls. What evolutionary purpose could that possibly achieve?

    Q: Well it's pretty common in nature, and who really cares? There's too many straight people reproducing to worry about under-population.

    Z: What about Japan? Wasn't there this documentary on about the lack of people in certain areas of Japan?

    Q: Eh, you're not in Japan though, and you're not going to be much use are you? Not on your own, and you don't live in Japan. There's a few empty deserts where no one really lives and such, and it doesn't seem to have had much of an effect.

    Z: Don't you think it's weird you have certain biological "assets" though despite your attraction to women?

    Q: You're gay, deal with it.

    Z: But aren't lesbians supposed to be more like men and less responsible and caring so less likely to be good parents?

    Q:Woah,woah,woah, back it up there. First off, that's sexist. It's just plain incorrect to say all men are irresponsible and less caring, anyone can not care and/or not be responsible.

    Z: You're right, maybe it's because you're secretly sexist that you're gay.

    Q:But I'm not sexist, you are.

    Z:But I'm you,idiot.

    Q: Yeah well, I wish you weren't. I guess I'm just misinformed really.

    Z: Another thing, don't you think it's weird that you want date someone who looks like you? Isn't that a bit narcissistic?

    Q:Says the one writing a thread about themselves. Besides, If I were truly that vain, I'd date someone who looked exactly like me and the same name as me, not just the same gender.

    Z: But don't you think it's kind of... incesty? Like since females are more similar to each other and stuff?

    Q: That's like saying two white people can't date because they're the same race.

    Z: But especially with having the same faulty genes and all...

    Q:Ugh, not this again. You're beginning to talk as if we're a different species.

    W: *starts singing in Marceline the vampire Queen's voice "It's like I'm not even a person am I? I'm just your...."

    Q and Z:shut up W, you aren't helping.

    Z: but aren't gays and bi's and pans more genetically similar?

    Q: With that logic, you're implying that I'm more likely to be more related to some random lesbian on the street then say... my own sister. Family trees still apply here. Besides, they still haven't worked out the main causes for homosexuality but most theories out there seem to suggest a mixture of epigenetics and hormones are involved. Besides, you're gay whether you like it or not. No use arguing with something you can't change.

    Z: I.... I guess you're right, still can't shake this feeling though.

    Q: I know, internalised homophobia can sometimes just come back even though you thought you'd dealt with it already.

    Z: Maybe you need therapy.

    Q: Possibly, I probably care more about this then others do in my life. Why am I so consumed by this?

    Sorry for the long post, just wanted to share my crazy mind with you. :lol: Feel free to judge me. I know I do.
     
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    Sounds like me. Interesting thing to share, tis rather enlightening... Now we know you've got a solid debating, and thoughtful from multiples angles, mind.
     
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    Can definitely relate to this!
     
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    My mind is a lot like that, too.
     
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    The feels I can relate so much.. but it looks things are about to pick up for me in the relationship department I'm sure of it. XD
     
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    True, but it's not exactly great when you're trying to sleep in the early morning and you have the whole damn debate team in your head debating whatever's on your mind. :lol:
     
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    (*hug*) Goes to show I'm not too crazy then after all perhaps. Maybe we could join an alliance? :lol: Perhaps not, but have a high five from me anyway.

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    Well I assume we're kind of all like that. This little incertitude that keeps popping up.
    That said, it honestly is reassuring to know I'm not the only one who's going nuts.
     
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    I guess we are to some degree, maybe we're all a little crazy. But then again, aren't all the best people? :icon_wink
     
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    I do that all the time, and outloud to boot xD

    But, yeah, I'm constantly debatting with myself
     
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    Least you're only arguing about sexuality instead of stuff that dosen't have a concrete answer TT^TT

    But I guess we all do debate with ourselves pretty often.
     
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    We are all fucking nuts, trust me...
     
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    I do this sometimes! But mine usually goes something like this:

    M: I should make something to eat.

    M: It could be fancy! Like bacon fried in syrup!

    M: Or I could just make an egg.

    M: Or a banana loaf!

    M: Or an egg. Less effort, cuz God knows you're lazy.

    M: Except when you're motivated! What better motivation is there than bacon?!

    M: The motivation of not working at all and coming back later when I'm actually, like, HUNGRY.

    M: Fine, bitch. Have it your way. No syrupy bacon for you then.

    M: I'm fine with that.

    M: And less practice for when you have a boyfriend to make syrupy bacon-wrapped banana loaf for!

    M: Yeah, and when will that happen?

    M: IT MIGHT! NO MATTER WHAT SLIM CHANCE THERE IS OF YOU GETTING A BOYFRIEND!

    D: Shut up in there, I'm trying to read.

    M: Okay, okay. Whatever. I'm not making bacon or banana loaf, get over it.

    M: I HATE YOU! You will make bacon now!

    M: Yeah well I do to. Also, I'm gonna get fit and get a boyfriend.

    M: I hate your sarcastic self!

    M: Okay, but there's a line for that. :slight_smile:
     
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    I presume the double entity wasn't intended. :grin:

    ---------- Post added 19th Dec 2015 at 09:04 PM ----------

    :lol:

    For me I usually argue with myself over if I have time to make Wheatabix or to just have cereal at breakfast- and by doing so I usually waste that I could have used making Wheatabix. :eusa_doh: Damn you brain.
    :grin:
     
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