Get ,leave ,run Away!

Before I start this I would just like to thank everyone for being nice to me.
I know what you will all say after I am finished but it wont do any good.
Please dont bother.I am writing this not from something I have written in the past but of what I am feeling at this very moment.




Fall.

Brick by Brick my wall is breaking.
Lie upon Lie my secrets are waking.
Tear after Tear my heart is still aching.
Move to Move my hands are shaking.
Thought by Thought I am faking...
No longer can I hold these emotions so torn.
A boy who wishes he was never born.
Love once here is now scorn.
I run to a place that seems so foreign.
The reasons this came to be seem to pile.
I hate myself all the while.
In my mind I search each aisle.
I cant seem to find that certain file.
I begin to cry.
I begin to shake.
This mind so frail begins to break.
I try to move.
I try to fly.
A spirit this damaged doesnt go high.
I start to crotch.
I start to call.
This body so weak I begin to fall.




I thought I would be here for a long time but recent events have led to my premature leaving.I had told the guy I liked, who was my friend, I was gay two days ago.He was fine with this because after I said "Im gay.." he replied with "Me too." He liked me as well but we didnt discuss anything. I was at his house yesterday( still am) because I was going to stay the night.It was about 12 when we were getting ready for bed...He had taken a shower and went to his room.I went to the shower and went back to the bedroom to get dressed.I put my clothes on and hopped under the covers and he turned to look at me.Confused, I asked "What?" He leaned forward and kissed me.We began to make out and a few minutes later he slid his hand down my pajamas...My hand began to slide down his body.I realized he hadnt even gotten dressed...He just jumped into bed.We made love and I began to cry...I knew I couldnt tell my parents that I was in love with a guy.For those who have read this far I am terribly sorry if I have discouraged you in anyway. I am going to shorten this by telling you after summer I am getting an apartment and he is moving in with me.Dont be like me and run from your problems.
Timothy signing off forever. :goodluck: