It has been a long night. I am part of a teacher prep program and the gov. just instituted the use of this new stupid assessment that now determines if I can become a teacher regardless of my completion of the program. The assessment is terrible, but it on top of this program makes me want to cry every night. I have found a new level of self loathing in this program. I hope they ask at the end would I recommend it to others so I could say no. This program has driven me to go back to therepy becasue of the dark places it leaves me. May this program rot in a shallow grave. Now that I got that off my chest let's hear what makes you want to give up. Sometimes you just got to say it aloud to somebody to help reduce the weight on your shoulders.:help::bang::bang::tears::icon_sad:
School. Depression. Teachers. Depression. Parents. Depression. Adults telling me that I need to try harder. Depression. Stress. Depression. Getting told I'm not good enough. Depression. That's not everything, but it's the major things right now.
I'm sorry to hear school isn't going well for you two hopefully school will get better for all of us soon.
I think the idea of it not being what I expected makes me want to give up without trying. I could be drawing and the anatomy is terrible, the next time I try to draw I'd just talk myself out of it because last time wasn't up to my expectations. I want to start cosplaying one day and sewing scares the crap out of me but I talk myself out of trying because it wouldn't be what I was hoping for.
When my class, teachers and friends forget about me ._. I apparently 'didn't do my homework' when in actual fact I was sitting right there, my laptop open, work clearly showing. Teacher walks straight past me and says I haven't done it. Then when I take part in multiple things, or come up with great ideas, my friend gets all the credit, me being entirely ignored. Thanks teacher, you sure do know how to make someone feel wanted in this world -,-
There are times when I simply want to give up on people and live with cats, but I don't think it would work, so....
Humanity and just the way some people are so selfish to others and completely disregard them in so many ways
