So I was laying bed last night and it hit me that my mom might know I'm bi, or think that I'm gay. I remembered that my mom caught me looking at gay and straight porn more than a few times. Then it occurred to me that my mom has never asked me about girls or relationships. Has this happened to anybody else?
Yes. We never discussed it. I was in the closet, beyond the day she passed away. I often have asked myself the question, if she knew. Mothers figure a lot of things out. And they talk to other adults, who observe funny things sometimes. All I know for sure is that I always could depend on my mother to be there for me. I think her love was unconditional. I'm sure there were times when she was disappointed with me, and I know I didn't handle everything as well as she deserved. I wasn't really sure of anything, in time to tell her anything. I hope your mother is going to be as accepting of you, and be there for you. I think you should consider discussing this with her. There will come a time when you need someone to talk to, and she may be the only person, at that moment, that you can really trust.
I think my mum was always in denial that I was trans, I remember her making comments about it. "You don't want to be a boy, do you?" She might ask 12 year old me. "Boys wear skirts(kilts) too, so what's your excuse?" When I eventually came out as trans, she acted like it was this huge thing that she had no idea about, which makes me laugh when I think of it. I think you should just muster up the courage and confront her about it instead of letting it eat away at you. You can do it, I believe in youuuu!
Mums tend to have a "Sixth Sense" about this sort of thing, I've never told mine and don't really intend to but wearing a dress to a party may have been a pretty good indicator
Maybe she knows! I don't know, personally, I don't think that my mother did, just because she seemed pretty surprised when I mentioned it. Hopefully if your mother does know, she'll be as supportive as mine was! (She gave me a hug and told me that any sexuality was fine with her, bless her!)
I always thought my mother knew, but it turns out she didn't really know. I tried to hide it by talking about 'hot' guys and what my future husband will look like. And it wasn't hard to do, becuase I am attracted to guys. Just not as much. She said she noticed that I talked about girls a lot, though, so that made her wonder.
