Looking back, what were some "clues" that you were lgbt?

Lusting after Link while playing Ocarina of Time back in 5th grade.

 

Me being five, six, seven years old and saying "I want to be a boy" and meaning it.

 

Being secretly excited during swimming class to see all the boys bodies though not willing to admit it. Oh and watching inuyasha he and koga are my Husbandos

 

I'll echo this, though I didn't take swimming lessons this late in life. But certainly noticing good-looking guys in my class, going back to probably grade 5-6. I didn't really know what to do with this information, but I hindsight, yeah, I totally liked what I saw.

I can remember in probably grade 6 or 7 sneakily looking up porn on dial-up internet back in the day with a friend late at night and not really getting what he was all excited about.

 

I felt the same way in PE class.

 

When I was about 4 and told everyone I was a tomboy and that I was going to grow into a boy when I was older, though I was fine being a girl at that moment. Also being that age and throwing a fit when the girls said I had to have a tea part with them because I was a girl.

This one time in 6th grade I was thinking over how my crush was way more feminine than me and how half the time I was jealous of how he looked. Was thinking that I didn't care if he was more feminine because I could be the masculine boyfriend.

7-8th grade and the sudden sick feeling I would get at the sight of my boobs.
There were several signs after that but I was in some deep denial.

 

When I used to write in around middle school, one of my characters literally changed from a woman to a man. He was my absolute favorite character to write about. Also, when I read mangas or books where girls dressed as guys or even became guys, I would wonder why they would want to change back to a girl. I really liked female characters who could pull it off as guys and often did. Character customization screens were my favorite part of video games, next to the actual playing. It should've been really obvious.

And a bunch of other stuff.

 

I was like this too. This, and the fact that I always had really hot guy friends, who when I look back at it, we actually crushes.

:lol:

 

When I was younger, I used to enjoy pretending I was a girl, pretended to put on jewelry, and even pretended that chapsick was lipstick. I also judged boys and guys by how attractive they were.

 

When I was in middle school and I secretly watched The L Word and honest to God I had no freaking clue why two girls were doing that stuff but I still kept on watching it lol

 

I have a clear memory of being in kindergarten and befriending this girl specifically because I thought she was pretty. And then in first grade, it happened again. Then in second grade... well, you get the picture.

Also, while I was growing up, all my friends would be like obsessed over boys (like actors and singers and stuff), while I always obsessed over girls-- for example, during the Bieber craze, I was too busy putting up posters of Victoria Justice in my room to listen to any of his music... I just never did understand the whole "boy-crazy" thing. To be honest, I still don't :lol: In hindsight, I guess I was kinda fooling myself, thinking it was even possible I could be straight.

 

Well, as a kid I used to put male action figures on top of each other. Not understanding why I was interested in that.

 

I always felt so disconnected trying to imagine my future as a guy. When I was really little I tried picturing myself as a girl and it just felt natural.

 

I suppose the biggest clues that I was not a normal straight boy came from the contrast between me and my twin brother (who did end up being a normal straight boy). As kids we were opposites: he was strong and tall and loved sports and smashing things...I was soft and sensitive and liked looking at maps and drawing in my notebook. That didn't guarantee LGBT, but there was a significant difference between us that hinted he was more stereotypically male and I was not.

 

I guess how throughout my life I would just look at girls and determine how pretty I thought them to be. While wondering what it would be like to date them. Because I also kinda did that with guys too it kinda threw me off from realising that I'm not straight, but whenever I look back on life now, all I wonder is how the fuck did I think I was straight? :lol:

Also I had this "admiration" for this girl when I was 8 or 9 or something, and I thought she was super pretty and amazing etc. I only realised recently that that was most likely a crush.

 

Looking at my friends and my older brother's friends and wondering why I got excited to just be near them. Clothed or not. Getting chill bumps when some guys would put their arm around my shoulder or touch my arm or leg. And then when I started checking out things on the net with my friends. They were excited about the girls. I was excited about the guys and how excited my friends were!

 

Just knowing really, but I guess I never liked the aesthetics of a male in video games/real life and finding most males to be repulsive and disgusting aesthetics wise.
I grew out of that, but agreed that I was not to be a guy and live that awful life.

 

This!

There would be something like this for like two seconds in a movie or a TV show and I would be OBSESSED and not know why and then I'd be hiding in my room cutting up shirts from our rag collection and trying to recreate the costumes for myself and doing the moves!

And THIS...

But "man to woman." Although I always LOVED it when a girl character dressed as a guy. Then I could imagine I was her in my daily life.

 

Thinking boys were lucky because they could grow up and marry girls.