Hey. I'm going to get right in to it. Basically, I'm a 22 yr old guy and recentely I've been questioning my sexual orientation. While it might've been better to go to some reddit to find this, I want to ask the gay people to gather information. First of all, I've been into girls my entire life. I have nothing against gay people, but the thought of being with a man has always been a thought that gets me sick to my stomach. I can't see myself being with a man. Kissing a man. Having sex with a man. When I rationally and realistically ask myself whether I can be with a man - I almost throw up, no offence. I'm 100% positive I'm attracted to girls. The curves, the thighs, the whole body, the feminine details, the eyes, the way they are - I don't know how to descrive my attraction, but I'm definitely attracted to women. I don't think I'd ever give that up, to be with a man. So I wouldn't ever call myself gay I guess. Maybe I'm bi? I have no idea. Like, how do you gay men look at other men? I can only think of having sex with a man when I'm watching porn. When I walk on the streets, I only find myself looking for girls. It subconsiously happens, it's not in my power. Sometimes, I think that maybe it's the porn that's mindfucking me. Maybe the unattracted thing is the only thing that can get me off - it's like a forbidden fruit or some shit. I have no idea. Maybe I'm in denial. Maybe I do like men. Am I in denial? I don't know. Maybe I shouldn't label myself at all and call it a day. Anyone going through the same shit?
Well, it doesn't seem like you have any strong feelings towards men, sexually or emotionally. Unless I misunderstood your post. Can you elaborate more? I'm bisexual FTR, so I can try and help you understand your situation more if more info is provided. The porn thing can definitely be a factor here. What you like in porn is not always an indicator of your orientation, so if you may like looking at men in porn, it may not have anything to do w/ your sexuality.
It doesn't seem like you're attracted to men. Porn can be a bad indicator. It's probably more of a curiosity or you enjoy watching.
I think you aren't attracted to men. I am attracted to men and I've rarely watched porn at all. Also I tend to feel really sick and I want to throw up and vomit whenever I think of women naked. But on the other hand when women wear clothes I am fine. So just try and think of a man sexually, if you feel sick and feel like you want to vomit, then you probably aren't attracted to men at all.
If you really don't want to do it with another man, and you really don't want to share forms of intimacy with another man, and being with a woman just seems like a better idea to you, then I would think it's safe to say that you at the very least are not gay. If you are bi, you're probably 98% straight, because you're only attracted by the ~2% or so of men you see in your life (in porn). I don't know this stuff, though. It's just a possibility.
Put it on the back burner, and--as the man says--let the sperm dry where it lands. Time will tell. And if it does not....I have found that ignorance truly can be bliss.
