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boy0boy · 30th Jul 2009, 11:44 PM

I can feel comfortable spilling this to complete strangers but something pretty huge is coming my way. I've felt this undeniable feeling of death recentlly - I have a weird family history of knowing things.. on a deeper different level.

I just have to narrow down the reasoning, at first it was like a car accident feeling. Then I found a lump in the shower the other day. I just feel like things are slipping away- I use to always say: {in situations where people are put in a position to sign "DNR" for no extrodinary measures to be taken to keep them alive} "why wouldn't you fight for life?" Yet here I am and I feel like death has never scared me, but NOW I can see why people would choose to just go when its meant.

I have the first doctors appointment tomorrow when I'll finally have direction on the matter. Not conclusion. but direction.

Jekko · 31st Jul 2009, 01:20 AM

Wow, do you mean as in psychicly you feel like it's your time?

I also have a gift where i just know something is wrong with someone.. and next thing you boom they're dead. It happens like once a year.
If you wanna chat further just message me. I can share with you a couple of things.

shorty · 31st Jul 2009, 03:25 AM

Yikes. All I can say, is that I hope I hope the appointment goes better than you expect! :hug:

boy0boy · 31st Jul 2009, 09:08 PM

Well someone told me maybe it was a feeling for someone around me- and yeah my appointment went reasonably well, enough to pretty much debunk cancer or anything SUPER serious.

But NOW my friends father just had a heart attack.

I mean the "feeling" isn't new. Its just this time it was serious. Yet I still don't feel completely at ease myself.

George · 1st Aug 2009, 12:44 AM

When my Dad passed away most of us had this feeling of depression beforehand.. But try not to freak out or anything, because it could be nothing. I always get feelings of death but no one I know has died. It's just our emotions out of check.

Absentminded · 1st Aug 2009, 05:39 AM

You're not the only one who gets that. I do too. You can also PM me too to talk about it.

malachite · 1st Aug 2009, 05:45 AM

Why would you want to kept alive by machine. Laying unconcious in a bed. A mere shadow of who you once were. Keeping the one you love clinging to the idea that you might suddenly just get better, instead of letting them move on.
I'm DNR and I'm staying that way.

30th Jul 2009, 11:44 PM	#1
boy0boy the Lorax Full Member Gender: bro Orientation: I dig Dudes Out Status: outside the box Location: I wander often Age: 23 Posts: 254 Join Date: Nov 2007	why is it I can feel comfortable spilling this to complete strangers but something pretty huge is coming my way. I've felt this undeniable feeling of death recentlly - I have a weird family history of knowing things.. on a deeper different level. I just have to narrow down the reasoning, at first it was like a car accident feeling. Then I found a lump in the shower the other day. I just feel like things are slipping away- I use to always say: {in situations where people are put in a position to sign "DNR" for no extrodinary measures to be taken to keep them alive} "why wouldn't you fight for life?" Yet here I am and I feel like death has never scared me, but NOW I can see why people would choose to just go when its meant. I have the first doctors appointment tomorrow when I'll finally have direction on the matter. Not conclusion. but direction. __________________ "I love you.... I've always felt that there was this unspoken connection between us, and ever since the first time I saw you and you were holding my favorite pop-tart."

31st Jul 2009, 01:20 AM	#2
Jekko ★_★ Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: very open minded Location: Hollywood CA Age: 21 Posts: 248 Join Date: Jul 2009	Re: why is it Wow, do you mean as in psychicly you feel like it's your time? I also have a gift where i just know something is wrong with someone.. and next thing you boom they're dead. It happens like once a year. If you wanna chat further just message me. I can share with you a couple of things. __________________ "I luv myself and that's enough"

31st Jul 2009, 03:25 AM	#3
shorty vertically challenged Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Sister and a couple of friends. Location: Land of Oz Posts: 320 Join Date: Jul 2009	Re: why is it Yikes. All I can say, is that I hope I hope the appointment goes better than you expect! :hug:

31st Jul 2009, 09:08 PM	#4
boy0boy the Lorax Full Member Gender: bro Orientation: I dig Dudes Out Status: outside the box Location: I wander often Age: 23 Posts: 254 Join Date: Nov 2007	Re: why is it Well someone told me maybe it was a feeling for someone around me- and yeah my appointment went reasonably well, enough to pretty much debunk cancer or anything SUPER serious. But NOW my friends father just had a heart attack. I mean the "feeling" isn't new. Its just this time it was serious. Yet I still don't feel completely at ease myself. __________________ "I love you.... I've always felt that there was this unspoken connection between us, and ever since the first time I saw you and you were holding my favorite pop-tart."

1st Aug 2009, 12:44 AM	#5
George Banned Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Out to everyone Location: Melbourne, Australia Age: 19 Posts: 2,387 Join Date: Jul 2007	Re: why is it When my Dad passed away most of us had this feeling of depression beforehand.. But try not to freak out or anything, because it could be nothing. I always get feelings of death but no one I know has died. It's just our emotions out of check.

1st Aug 2009, 05:39 AM	#6
Absentminded EC Addict Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: I'm a ladies kind of guy ;) Out Status: I flirt in public. Take a guess ;) Location: Vermont Age: 19 Posts: 546 Join Date: Aug 2008	Re: why is it You're not the only one who gets that. I do too. You can also PM me too to talk about it.

1st Aug 2009, 05:45 AM	#7
malachite EC's realist Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Out to everyone Location: Orlando Posts: 6,480 Join Date: Apr 2009	Re: why is it Why would you want to kept alive by machine. Laying unconcious in a bed. A mere shadow of who you once were. Keeping the one you love clinging to the idea that you might suddenly just get better, instead of letting them move on. I'm DNR and I'm staying that way. __________________ It's the 21st century, your bigotry is outdated. Either upgrade or go away.