Suicide...? - Empty Closets - A safe online community for gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgendered people coming out

warrior · 18th Oct 2009, 12:28 PM

How many of you here have thought of suicide as a mean of getting away from all forms of misery, i.e. had suicidal thoughts? How many of you have actually attempted it?

x2x2x2x2y2 · 18th Oct 2009, 12:32 PM

I have thought about it but I will never try it. My way of thinking is I don't wanna kill myself, but if I die(not by my hands)that would be better. I hope know one kills themself! Good luck if any1 needs it! =)

Paragon · 18th Oct 2009, 12:34 PM

thought about it never tried it

Z3ni · 18th Oct 2009, 12:36 PM

Yeah I thought about it ALOT, but never seemed to made an attempt. Now I won't even think about doing it, I rather be depressed for a period of time than end everything in one go, coz you only live once right?

A nights sleep an I'll feel better

grapevine fires · 18th Oct 2009, 12:38 PM

Thought about it, tried it, but only half-heartedly... I'm not "strong" enough to pull through and land myself in the hospital. I'd prefer to have my miseries go moderately unnoticed... no big scars, no permanent damage to internal organs.

Z3ni · 18th Oct 2009, 12:41 PM

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Originally Posted by grapevine fires

Thought about it, tried it, but only half-heartedly... I'm not "strong" enough to pull through and land myself in the hospital. I'd prefer to have my miseries go moderately unnoticed... no big scars, no permanent damage to internal organs.

Not true, I think depression and stress can cause harm to your mind, body and SooOuuuUL................................ ¬_¬

warrior · 18th Oct 2009, 12:45 PM

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Originally Posted by x2x2x2x2y2

I have thought about it but I will never try it. My way of thinking is I don't wanna kill myself, but if I die(not by my hands)that would be better. I hope know one kills themself! Good luck if any1 needs it! =)

Same here. I wish God takes my life - I'm not strong enough to face such sufferings...and who knows what's there to come in future. Alk I can see is darkness in the near future...

But then again, I don't think death is a solution. LGBTs are still going to be persecuted and executed even after my life is over - so what's the point. Instead let's try to bring some change in the world. But then again, facing such sufferings...

AtomicCafe · 18th Oct 2009, 01:18 PM

Thought about it, tried it, failed at it, regretted it.

**Owen** · 18th Oct 2009, 01:49 PM

Normally I don't think about, but every once in a while I have depressive episodes where I go through a bad existential crisis and end up considering suicide. What keeps me from trying it is my connection to my family and my friends. The thought of the misery they would feel from me being gone has pulled me back form the brink more times than I care to remember. It's probably not a good thing that the only thing that allows me to value my life in those cases is that others value it. Then again, when my life seems hopeless and futile, where else can I turn to give it value?

In short, thought about it, would never try it, because I know people would be sad about it.

BasketCase · 18th Oct 2009, 04:25 PM

Thought about it and tried it, failed obviously, I think I'll probably end up trying it again someday unless I pull my life together - something I am failing to do (Quickly enough) right now.

18th Oct 2009, 04:29 PM

Thought about it but came round to the fact that I'm only 17 and yeh life kicks you in the balls and runs away, I still have many years to go and things should improve!

Permanent solution to a temporary problem! Is the way I see it now.

Bacon · 18th Oct 2009, 04:36 PM

I tried cutting my wrists, taking pills and asphyxiation.

Not doing that anymore.

Pasalacqua · 18th Oct 2009, 04:40 PM

I've thought about it, though, the only way I could ever see myself killing myself is by pills, and, I'm not going to get into why, but everytime I even take like, an advil, I 9 times out of 10, throw it up almost immediately. So. That's not gonna happen.

Mickey · 18th Oct 2009, 06:32 PM

Tried it at age 17,ended up in a psych ward for 2 1/2 months. I'm still here,thankfully!

Derek the Wolf · 18th Oct 2009, 06:56 PM

I thought about it a lot but never made an attempt. I thought if I survived the attempt it would screw up my life too much.

Self harm is a different story.

18th Oct 2009, 07:02 PM

Thought, attempted and now suffering =) That's what I get D=

beckyg · 18th Oct 2009, 07:52 PM

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Originally Posted by Mickey

Tried it at age 17,ended up in a psych ward for 2 1/2 months. I'm still here,thankfully!

I'm glad you're still here Mickey!

You guys suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It leaves those who love you wondering what they could have done to stop this. There is horrible guilt from those who love you. I think its pretty damn selfish.

There is no problem in this world worth killing yourself over. In fact, you can take the pain you are feeling and learn from it and grow into a better person. You are gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender because you have something to teach the world. Now go forward and do it! I tell parents all the time that having a gay son is a GIFT and I believe that with my whole heart. You can sit around saying "why me" or you can show the world what you're made of.

OK, that's my pep talk for today! I love you all and would be devastated if anything happened to anybody here.

Swamp56 · 18th Oct 2009, 07:56 PM

Tried it a few times earlier this year and last year during a depression streak, but haven't tried it since.

ZachO · 18th Oct 2009, 08:00 PM

I considered it seriously once, and probably would have done so, but my cat convinced me not to. I'll elaborate on that if anyone's interested.

ethelred · 18th Oct 2009, 08:07 PM

Yes, I have thought about it, often once. Much better now that I am out and about.

Shit, if only they all knew, if only they all read this. Look at us, teenagers and twenty-somethings casually discussing how we have considered offing ourselves.

Solidarity!

18th Oct 2009, 12:28 PM	#1
warrior Well Known Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Posts: 104 Join Date: May 2009	Suicide...? How many of you here have thought of suicide as a mean of getting away from all forms of misery, i.e. had suicidal thoughts? How many of you have actually attempted it?

18th Oct 2009, 12:32 PM	#2
x2x2x2x2y2 PARAWHORE!!!!!! Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: ~I like guys~ Out Status: Everyone, pretty much. Location: Wonderland (and California, USA) Age: 18 Posts: 3,971 Join Date: Oct 2009	Re: Suicide...? I have thought about it but I will never try it. My way of thinking is I don't wanna kill myself, but if I die(not by my hands)that would be better. I hope know one kills themself! Good luck if any1 needs it! =) __________________ "THINGS ARE LOOKING UP, OH FINALLY!!" "I believe that there's hope buried beneath it all and...Hiding beneath it all and... GROWING beneath it all!!" -Paramore ...and the lesbians

18th Oct 2009, 12:34 PM	#3
Paragon ECs Dramatic Fanboy! Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Bi, but more on the gay side. Out Status: Around 8-12 people, but still closeted to most. Location: Ireland Age: 17 Posts: 325 Join Date: Sep 2009	Re: Suicide...? thought about it never tried it __________________ Jessica Stam's #1 fan, I'm sorta like her e-stalker, stealing things like usernames, Pictures, Random Information, ETC.

18th Oct 2009, 12:36 PM	#4
Z3ni Ec's ADD Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gayish Out Status: My Twin Location: England, Manchester Posts: 3,080 Join Date: Oct 2008	Re: Suicide...? Yeah I thought about it ALOT, but never seemed to made an attempt. Now I won't even think about doing it, I rather be depressed for a period of time than end everything in one go, coz you only live once right? A nights sleep an I'll feel better __________________ Through pain, lies success.

18th Oct 2009, 12:38 PM	#5
grapevine fires EC Addict Regular Member Gender: F*ed… my sex, though, is female. Orientation: love is love, sexuality is fluid Out Status: Pretty much everyone, minus extended family Location: Ontario, Canada Age: 20 Posts: 431 Join Date:** Jun 2008	Re: Suicide...? Thought about it, tried it, but only half-heartedly... I'm not "strong" enough to pull through and land myself in the hospital. I'd prefer to have my miseries go moderately unnoticed... no big scars, no permanent damage to internal organs. __________________ Love Always Wins

18th Oct 2009, 01:18 PM	#8
AtomicCafe Gay by Day, Dyke by Night Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Asexual Lesbian Out Status: Out, Loud, and Proud Location: Tucson, AZ Age: 19 Posts: 208 Join Date: Oct 2009	Re: Suicide...? Thought about it, tried it, failed at it, regretted it. __________________ That child has several options: staying in the closet, suicide. And then one day, that child might open up the paper and it says, "Homosexual Elected in San Francisco." - Harvey Milk

18th Oct 2009, 01:49 PM	#9
Owen Cleverly disguised as a responsible adult EC Admin Gender: Agendered dude Orientation: Panromantic androsexual Out Status: Everyone and their mother Location: Massachusetts, USA Age: 21 Posts: 2,870 Join Date: Jul 2007	Re: Suicide...? Normally I don't think about, but every once in a while I have depressive episodes where I go through a bad existential crisis and end up considering suicide. What keeps me from trying it is my connection to my family and my friends. The thought of the misery they would feel from me being gone has pulled me back form the brink more times than I care to remember. It's probably not a good thing that the only thing that allows me to value my life in those cases is that others value it. Then again, when my life seems hopeless and futile, where else can I turn to give it value? In short, thought about it, would never try it, because I know people would be sad about it. __________________ "Stand firm for what you believe in, until and unless logic and experience prove you wrong. Remember, when the emperor looks naked, the emperor is naked. The truth and a lie are not sort of the same thing. And there is no aspect, no facet, no moment of life that can't be improved with pizza." -Daria Morgendorffer

18th Oct 2009, 04:25 PM	#10
BasketCase EC Addict Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Two Brothers, HCP and now a work colleague/friend. Location: Northern Ireland Age: 30 Posts: 323 Join Date: Mar 2009	Re: Suicide...? Thought about it and tried it, failed obviously, I think I'll probably end up trying it again someday unless I pull my life together - something I am failing to do (Quickly enough) right now.

18th Oct 2009, 04:29 PM	#11
Jiggles Guest Posts: n/a	Re: Suicide...? Thought about it but came round to the fact that I'm only 17 and yeh life kicks you in the balls and runs away, I still have many years to go and things should improve! Permanent solution to a temporary problem! Is the way I see it now.

18th Oct 2009, 04:36 PM	#12
Bacon Member Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Some family and all friends. Location: Somewhere Posts: 58 Join Date: Aug 2009	Re: Suicide...? I tried cutting my wrists, taking pills and asphyxiation. Not doing that anymore.

18th Oct 2009, 04:40 PM	#13
Pasalacqua Well Known Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: Anyone who asks. Location: Pa Age: 19 Posts: 173 Join Date: Jun 2009	Re: Suicide...? I've thought about it, though, the only way I could ever see myself killing myself is by pills, and, I'm not going to get into why, but everytime I even take like, an advil, I 9 times out of 10, throw it up almost immediately. So. That's not gonna happen.

18th Oct 2009, 06:32 PM	#14
Mickey Older and bolder! Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: Out to everyone Location: Massachusetts Age: 50 Posts: 1,775 Join Date: Aug 2008	Re: Suicide...? Tried it at age 17,ended up in a psych ward for 2 1/2 months. I'm still here,thankfully! __________________ We don't choose to be gay...we're CHOSEN!

18th Oct 2009, 06:56 PM	#15
Derek the Wolf Furry Overlord Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Pansexual Out Status: Majority Location: Illinois Age: 20 Posts: 1,325 Join Date: Jul 2008	Re: Suicide...? I thought about it a lot but never made an attempt. I thought if I survived the attempt it would screw up my life too much. Self harm is a different story. __________________

18th Oct 2009, 07:02 PM	#16
Fargo Guest Posts: n/a	Re: Suicide...? Thought, attempted and now suffering =) That's what I get D=

18th Oct 2009, 07:56 PM	#18
Swamp56 EC Addict Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Out to everyone Location: Boston, MA Age: 21 Posts: 2,166 Join Date: Aug 2008	Re: Suicide...? Tried it a few times earlier this year and last year during a depression streak, but haven't tried it since. __________________

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18th Oct 2009, 08:00 PM	#19
ZachO Banned Gender: Male Orientation: Don't ask. Out Status: Some people on the internet, but that's it. Posts: 10 Join Date: Oct 2009	Re: Suicide...? I considered it seriously once, and probably would have done so, but my cat convinced me not to. I'll elaborate on that if anyone's interested.

18th Oct 2009, 08:07 PM	#20
ethelred Well Known Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Out to everyone Age: 23 Posts: 217 Join Date: Oct 2009	Re: Suicide...? Yes, I have thought about it, often once. Much better now that I am out and about. Shit, if only they all knew, if only they all read this. Look at us, teenagers and twenty-somethings casually discussing how we have considered offing ourselves. Solidarity!