New Year's Resolutions

- Get in shape to the point that I can start training for tumbling/free running (parkour) without worrying that I'm going to send myself to the hospital

- Learn how to break dance without looking like an idiot

- Significantly cut back on smoking

- Purge all women's clothing from my wardrobe

- Take up martial arts

- Keep a realistic budget

- Get organized

- Finish my first novel

- Land a showing at an art gallery for my paintings

(I know, I know, I have lofty ambitions.)

 

Get shit done now that I'm in Calfornia.

GO BACK TO SCHOOL SOMEHOW.

Meet himmmmmm

 

- Be fully out
- Maintain my body
- Go back to college
- Get a well paying job so I can afford living on my own

 

I love that this one is the easiest

 

Normally I'm not one for resolutions, because I always felt they were baseless; why does the start of a new arbitrary measurement of time mean that I might suddenly have more willpower than I had before? However, I now have reason to make a resolution, if only due to the time when the new year will start and where it is in relation to when other events in my life took place. But really, it's just because I know I need to do this for myself, no matter what time of year it may be.

Over the summer, I finally went to therapy for my long-standing depression, and I can say that it definitely helped. It has been months since my last suicidal thought, and I haven't felt the throes of melancholy since the summer. Not only that, but I also found myself more positive, more optimistic, more grateful, and generally in a better mood on average. All were very welcome changes, obviously, and I'm glad the therapy was successful.

But something else happened to accompany those changes. Much of my personality before therapy was based on pessimism, misanthropy, defeatism, cynicism, and general hopelessness. With the change in my personality came the loss of those perspectives as a basis for the way I saw the world, and more importantly, the basis for my personality, for my identity. In hindsight, there was no way I could see this coming, so I don't blame myself for letting this happen, but with those views lost as the basis for my personality, I started reflecting the personality traits of the people I spent time around much more than usual. Sure, before that summer, if I spent enough time around someone, I would pick up an idiosyncrasy of theirs or two, or perhaps even shift my personality a bit when I was around them, but after that summer, it took much less time for that change to happen, and it required much less exposure.

After I realized this was happening, I reflected on it and came to the conclusion that this was happening because I lost such a big part of what made me who I am. Now, don't get me wrong, it's a part of me that I was happy to lose, but the fact is that it left a void in my personality where there was once something negative, and my theory is that this new rapid adaption of others' personality traits is a result of me trying to fill that void with something, anything. And sometimes, I don't like what it's filled by. Sometimes I spend time around people who I don't admire all that much, in spite of liking their company, and I find myself taking on traits of theirs that I don't want to have. Quite frankly, it scares me sometimes.

So what does this have to do with my resolution? Well, in the coming months, maybe the coming years, I resolve to actively craft a new personality for myself in the space left by all of those negative emotions, one that can help me like myself, and one that will make me more resilient to the influences of others. I'm not going to say I'm going to try to discover "who I am", because if I have learned anything in my life, it's that our identity changes as we experience more, so trying to discover "who I am" is like trying to determine the position of a planet: you might get your answer if you work hard enough, but it's just going to change, anyways. So I'm going to make myself the person I want to be. I will actively look at what personality traits I admire in others, and adopt those traits myself, whilst mentally shielding myself from the traits that others exhibit which I don't like. That's my resolution, and I'm not waiting for the new year to start it; I don't have any time to delay on this.

 

Lose some more weight.

Do good in college so I can apply to transfer in the Fall.

Convince my parents to get me a new car.

 

Well dang it all. I'm running out of new years resolutions to make.

I quit smoking 10 years ago (both cigs .. and pot) (and believe me .. it wasn't easy)

I guess the only other new years resolution I can make at this point is to stop just "lurking" in this forum, and actually get off my lazy ass and start posting what's going on in my life, and to try and welcome each new member that joins EC.




(well, hell ... there's two for me right now) (&&&)(!)

 

I can't believe it's almost 2011!

Anyway my New Years resolutions are :

- Get fit and get a six pack
- Come out
- Get a new car
- A place of my own to live
- Make new friends
- Try my best to make it better than 2009 and 2010 but that won't be hard as they were both awful.

 

I try to make resolutions every year and always fail, but I will make them again this year and attempt to keep them for a change.

- Attempt to lose some weight (this is something that I definitely have to do.)
- Become more comfortable with myself.
- Try and find a significant other (will have to complete the other two resolutions first methinks.)

 

Change my look over the year,
maybe stop drinking,
and possibly masturbate less.

 

Work on coming out about being transgender (planning on starting this before New Year's: telling my best friend today).
Redo my image.
Get into Oxford.
Keep helping people on this forum.

Thing
(*hug*)

 

Hmm never made one of these Soo here goes. .
-Quiting smoking and maybe taking up some form of exercise.
-Learning punctuality.
-Moving out of the house before I "accidentally" murder my parent.
-Possibly growing some brass balls and finding myself a boyfriend.
-Oh and like EC's Red Queen, I really gotta stop biting my nails, I can only imagine how gross some people find this habit and as for swearing well I am too young to stop just yet.

 

- stop doing school assignments at the last minute

- try a new hobby like painting or drawing

- save money

- stop hididng my feelings

- think before I act

- cut my hair

 

Let me see:
- Lose some weight
- Get my driver license
- Quit Procrastinating so much

 

-Come out completely (yeah right)
-Adopt a more positive attitude (even less likely)

 

- Take my Vegetarianism to the next level by no longer eating eggs and only drinking organic milk (I stopped eating meat four years ago, so I'm good with that).
- Become more healthy (the generic new years ambition lol)
- Manage my time better.
- Buy an iPad (hehe not really a resolution, but oh well)
- Think of more new years resolutions... =D

 

- Fix my relationship with my parents.
- Go to a gay bar for the first time.
- Try to be happy.
- Do well in school.