Burned out all my hatred... yay?

[Kamina]

Don't know where this should go, but yeah. I guess this is a good thing.

So, over the past year I've been hating my ex for the 2 years he stole from me. I won't get into it because that's in the past. It was the most intense hatred I've ever felt. But now, all of a sudden, my reaction to him is just... meh.

JUST. FREAKING. MEH.

And it's the same thing for my other enemies online. MEH. I haven't actually made any offline enemies :P. I hope this lasts. But the way I see it, this can go one of 3 ways.

1. My hatred is gone for good and it's instead replaced by apathy/MEH.
2. It actually turns into self-hatred.
3. My reaction to myself is MEH.

The reason I've listed those last 2 is that I'm actually struggling with self-esteem problems. Hence the question mark next to the "yay" in the title.