ever ask yourself or wonder if this is life actually happening before your eyes after going through a traumatic experience, a reality check, a situation you never thought would happen or didn't want to happen, etc? i had that experience last night. was thinking about this whole thing regarding me questioning my sexuality, the realization that i'm starting to think and i guess realize that i am gay and living with it. like realizing everything i did until this point in life was a lie and i was okay with it knowing that the other side was waiting for me. it feels like a part of me died except i created that me, believing it only to find out that it didn't really exist or i built up something that truly wasn't what it really was. i also was questioning reality when i was smoking weed over the summer and how i was so high that i was tripping monkey balls. it was a feeling that i wish on nobody.
Well, I don't know if its the same, but sometimes I think, is this how people really perceive me as? and I try and look at myself from another persons point of view. P.s weed is amaaazing, but I never had too much of it.
mirroring is both good and bad because it's hard to have someone elses mindset. :tears: wish i could say the same thing. had tons of weed this summer. if i knew you, i would have gave you some to smoke.
