I am happy, gay, single, and me. No more steps backward.

[Friendly ghost]

I am pretty sure I am gay now. I just needed to tell someone, again.. I didn't really realize or acknowledge it until like a year ago, I kind of blocked it out. I've had a gf for the past 5 years anyway. But, I came out to her like 6 months ago, and it was horrifying. She cried so much, and I cried, that I ran back in the closet and got back together after only a month. I then spent the next 6 trying to figure out if I was gay or not, again. I am still not 100%. but I am close now. I think this is like the 3rd time I have got this fantastic feeling of coming out. I just wish it all happened sooner. Though, I am starting to connect the dots in my past.

Sorry, there is no point to this thread. I am very happy at the moment, and I just got off the phone with the now ex a couple hours ago. It is sad, and I hurt for her, but I have always played whatever role I thought I was supposed to. Being free of everything that kept me from being me is amazing. It alone makes me want to cry. I just want to be me, and not worry about what anyone else thinks. I love you all.

[Bosco]

I'm glad it all worked out in the end
Thanks for sharing! I feel better too now that you've reminded me to appreciate the silver lining.

[needshelp]

well, glad to see that you're happy and feel liberated.

[hml8]

congrats!
try not to feel too bad about hurting her cause it'll be better for both of you than if it went on longer!
I hope you continue on your path out of the closet! If you need anyone to talk to please feel free!