So after approximately a year and a half of questioning myself, having doubts, and living through a general confusion, I finally had an epiphany and realized that, yes, I am completely gay. I don't really know how to describe it...it literally seemed like I just woke up, and this one day it all came together. Something really clicked, and I'm not sure what. It probably helped that I discovered this website and read through a looooot of posts to try to figure things out for myself. But basically, giving it time was really what made it work out in the end, I guess. So what I'm trying to say is: if you're feeling lost or you feel like you've been trying forever to find who you are- don't give up! This is literally how I felt, and you might have the same aha! moment that I did. Or it could be a totally gradual process for you. Either way, give it time, and everything will work out! Right now, I just feel really happy, and kind of surreal. I guess I'm still a bit in shock, but I am just so glad that the denial phase (I wasn't aware that I was in denial) is done.
I'm glad that you came out to yourself (dont know how else to put it) and I hope that coming out to everyone else goes well. P.S you need to update your profile it still says questioning
I know what you mean. I went through something similar. At some point (also about 1 year of nightmarish questioning and confusion) I suddenly thought "wait, why do I think I'm bi? I'm gay!" and for a day or so, I was suddenly feeling a lot happier than I'd ever been. Everything made so much more sense! Like you said, something clicked! Unfortunately this happy phase didn't last very long (that is not to say yours wont. I hope it does!) as I started thinking about what that meant but since then, I've changed my out status to "possibly lesbian" on EC (may be you could too? :icon_wink) I've been trying to get used to the idea and I seem to feel gayer and gayer :lol: but at the same time, I feel more and more uncomfortable around girls and even more comfortable around guys :dry:
