ok, so, this is my first time here, well, see, shure i like girls, but not like guys, im just gona face the facts, guys, they turn me on, sexually, girls really dont turn me on, get all personal here, after all well.... stuff happens ( if you catch my drift) im all like, NO, THIS IS WRONG and start to feel sick about it and all like :bang: and then i go back to my old self again after a couple of minutes, see how i found out about the whole ideal, thes like a gay porn thingi, that people are told to go on, and they get all grossed out, but i didnt really get grossed out, and i even re viseted it, so yea, thats years ago from now, and now, that i think of it and all, ive only ever once been turnrd on by a girl, on the more emotional side of things, i cant say about guys, because ive never been in a relationship with one, but, i think im starting to grow apart from girls, the other bad thing is, i get called faggot all the time, even by randoms, and i dont know any gays, i only know a coupple of lesbians and bisexual friends ( there all girls), i dont know what to do? (btw, sorry for the bad spelling.)
The main point here is to not let other people get to you - if they call you a faggot, ignore it. Ask your gay and bi friends for advice. Don't worry about your sexuality being 'wrong' or anything, who's to say it is? Stay strong, hope my advice helped
How long have you thought about guys excluding the porn thing, if you have only just started having these feelings then explore them, check out guys in the street, allow yourself to think your gay and see what it feels like and if it's natural to you. The thing is if you do find guys attractive no matter what you do you can't stop it, so you can let yourself accept it or deny it and deny yourself happiness.
i don't know what your sexual orientation is but i can tell you is that you are normal like everyone else. don't ever believe that something is wrong with you because you have an attraction to men and not to women. don't listen to the haters either. but as for you figuring yourself out, i think you need to follow your heart and your mind. if it feels right, then........... there isn't much you can do about it.
None of us here signed up to be gay (or bi, or trans). We just sort of realized we WERE. And at that point, we can try to fight it, or we can try to accept it. And fighting it never seems to make you straight - it just makes you a gay person with a lot more stress in your life. Here's my suggestion. You sound like you're attracted to guys. Not EVERY guy, mind you, but the human beings that turn you on are male. So just run with that. If you're turned on by the idea of a guy, let it turn you on. Enjoy it. You don't have to share this info with anybody else just yet. Just enjoy the feelings, and know that eventually down the road, you'll probably be in a place where you can enjoy the feelings more openly. As far as other people calling you a faggot...they're not doing it to label you. They're doing it to hurt you. They say that to injure people, thinking that it's a term that will hurt you more than anything else they can think of. So try not to take it personally. Treat it like they're calling you stupid, or fat, or any generic "negative" word. Lex
