Does anyone wanna share?

Pretty much this for me, though I think I started a little later... say 15/16ish.

Honestly, I think I stumbled upon gay porn looking at straight porn because I didn't really have any attractions to girls IRL, so looking at porn was the next best thing for a horny teenager? Oh, now I remember: I think I saw a pop-up ad for a gay porn site (or rather, "straight" guys doing gay-for-pay) as I was surfing a generic porn site. It was intriguing, and they were attractive, so I Googled that and went from there.

 

I was at a party with some friends and I kinda had 'feelings' for my male best friend. A few days later I decided to look at gay porn to 'check stuff out'. For the life of me I can't remember how old I was. Possibly 14

 

For gay male porn, I actively looked for it at probably..age 18. I can't remember the exact year. I liked it which confused me quite a bit since I'm not attracted to men.

For gay female porn, I actively found it later than gay male porn and I didn't like it until I found more realistic forms (which hardly exist).

I've found reading and/or seeing 2 girls kiss in a romantic way to be much better than any kind of porn.

 

I was 12 and I just stumbled on it, but I found it fascinating. I looked at alot of other stuff too because I was in puberty and everything got me going, but above all gay porn was my favorite. I never felt good or bad about it because afterwards I just pretended it never happened because I had a serious denial stage. I was always terrified of getting caught by my parents, and at about 14 I did :icon_redf

My parents found a virus and I got in a little trouble, what site and what kind of porn it came from I still don't know. But my parents never brought it up again, I still wonder if they know about me or not.

 

The same shaking used to happen with me and sometimes still does,I have no idea what it is.:dry:

 

The first porn of any kind I encountered was my Step-Father's. He had a few videos of straight porn in his underwear drawer. When he left my mother for a short period of time we were getting rid of his junk (I couldn't have been older than 9 or so) and found them. Weeks later I called my mom at work and asked her if I could watch them. (I was a very weird kid, okay?)

Years later, I stumbled upon a "masturbation education" type website that had videos and photos of various techniques. I shivered with nervousness for hours just thinking about that website. After everyone in the house had gone to bed, I snuck out to the computer and went about "educating myself".

I didn't discover gay porn until I had a computer of my own, and by then I had lost that nervous feeling that came with viewing such mature materials.

 

Through puberty and my early teens, I never really watched gay porn, always heterosexual porn, but I always focused on the guy. I still don't really like gay porn or watch porn that often. I tend to use my imagination when it comes to these kind of things

 

I'm 15. Never watched porn or even masturbated.

Am I a freak?

 

No,Not at all.To me its different but many people don't really have urges to masturbate or watch porn.

 

My first memory of looking for images "for that purpose" is using Google images to search for it (I didn't stumble upon it, in other words). As such, I didn't find myself on the for-real porn sites until really late in my teenage years. I used mostly stock-photo websites at first, in fact; I just didn't know that there was more hardcore stuff out there, and those were the first sites I found that did anything for me, so I satisfied myself with that for years.

If I remember correctly, I was mostly just fascinated by the photos at first; I think I would just stare at them and admire the guy. The first and only time I ever got any feeling of "I shouldn't be looking at this," was when I found my first picture where the guy was intentionally posing seductively. He even had all his clothes on in the picture, if that gives you any idea of how naive I was about what was out there online. Maybe that's when I first felt arousal due to porn, or just first felt arousal in general, and I didn't really know what was going on, so I thought it was something wrong. I know better now.

 

I don't really remember much... it was mostly just curiosity, I guess. I decided to "punish" as part of some porn game I was playing by "making myself" look at gay porn. Then I kept going back for more, just out of curiosity. I remember being disappointed that I couldn't find anything more hardcore; most of the pics I found had them in their underpants, censored, or it only showed them waist-up.

There was also a time when I was throwing something into the dumpster behind my stepdad's work and I saw a fold-out of a magazine showing a bunch of naked men. I wanted to take it home, but my mom was by the car and would have seen me.

 

I stumbled upon it on accident (I was on tumblr..)

It really turned me on... so I kept going back. This was what made me realize that I am a lesbian and not bisexual..

 

Looked at lesbian porn a lot when I was a teenager, loved seeing girls kiss, and well since I had been with a guy b4 wonder what it looked like seeing guys kiss, so I downloaded a pic off of kazaa, it was awesome best pic to this day, wish I could find it lol

 

The first time I saw gay porn it was by accident, I stumbled upon it, but it shocked me. I didn't think porn could really turn me on haha but oh was I wrong...

 

I was extremely paranoid that my dad was monitoring my internet use. Not so much installing keyloggers and stuff like that but just keeping a log of different sites I visited. Maybe he had no idea how to do that or he was naive that his son would be looking up those kinds of sites but I decided to err on the side of caution. I searched Altavista for shirtless guys and stuff like that. I didn't quite use such blatant search queries like that but it would be something a little more innocent like just searching for an actor or something and then scouring the results hoping for some nice pics. Then Altavista image search came along and it made it way easier.

I eventually bought a used computer for about $100 (It was a i486 with 16 MB of RAM some ISA video card and I think I ran it in 640x480 resolution which isn't exactly optimal porn viewing) and got my own dialup connection into my room and I searched for dirtier stuff there. It was off my dad's network and I had complete control over it. I usually did that stuff at night. The last thing I wanted was my mom to open the door complaining why I was hogging the phoneline while I was pulling my goalie.

When I was in high school, some junior high student gave me some straight porno mag. I didn't really know him but I bumped into him on the way home and he showed me the magazine. I don't know where he got it but he gave it to me because he said he loved the chicks but didn't like all the guys in the photos. So I took it off his hands. It was really small too. Like the size of a Reader's Digest.

I really hope my parents don't read E.C. Haha, if they did though it would make for an awkward converation after reading this. I'm sure they would have a good chuckle about it now though.

 

i guess lot of people did that if not all at my 15 i think!