Am I wrong to expect to much of what could be the most awkward moment in my life. I'm talking in terms of the mental picture and thoughts I have in my head about what my first time would be like and how I would it to go and well... Maybe I'm just over thinking the whole thing. Can it be this really special moment? Can it happen in the moment where a simple kiss leads to it? I mean I only wanna do it when I'm in a relationship because random hookups are risky and just don't appeal to me at all. I only ask this question or questions rather because what if I am thinking that it will be this special/fantastic moment when in actual fact. It's not. Basically in my head I see my self in a relationship with a guy and further down the line a simple kiss leads to it but of course I'd be nervous. (Please tell me if this sounds crap and soppy) but its what I want. I don't wanna rush sex but then again I've got this feeling that when I do meet a guy (which I doubt will happen any time soon), relationship and all that, I'd keep putting it off because I'd be waiting to long for this special/right moment. If anyone understands this post then please share your responses. Basically Have I got too higher expectations of what my first time will be like?
everyone can have this lovely-dovey scene in their head. 99% of the time it wont go the way you had planned it exactly. well i know certain things/dates havet gone i planned in my head at all haha. when youre ready, im sure youll know. only you will know that and you shouldnt feel pushed, if you want to wait 5 years when youre in a relationship then so be it. there is no rule for 'waiting to long' for having sex. a lot of people say the first time isnt that great, but it doesnt really matter all that matters is that is was a special moment for you both to share together (god i sound soppy haha)
WE ARE SO ALIKE!!! I'm also rather repulsed by random hookups, they just don't seem to appeal to me, for whatever reason. On the other hand, i think in some ways i've kinda over-romanticised what my first time would be in my head, and in the end not being the way i wanted it would only compound my disappointment.