It happened!

Words cannot say how good last night was for me. I know that technically there is a thread for it already, but this is not just a story, its my present. In a party (a straight party!) I kissed a guy yesterday . For the first time. It was not just a kiss, we actually made out for quite a while and by some miracle managed to avoid my brother, who was there with us. I feel so happy for finally making this accomplish, I guess the life of loneliness I thought I would have is only a pessimistic illusion. Ill post more details later, when the "hyper phase" is already passed. I thank God for such a good place like EC to exist, so that its possible for me to talk to someone about it.


Thank you Mr Sandman, for hearing my prayers! :icon_bigg

 

Ok, here's the sweet, sweet story.

There was a party me and my whole study group (I am in a trip to study spanish in spain) could attend today if we wanted to. I didnt really want to go, but because everyone else would be there, I went anyway. In the party, we were supposed to wear white, and if it wasn't for this detail, I would probably never have met him. Right after we got in there, I notice there was a guy, also from a study group but not from mine, who was wearing an "exquisite" white shirt. It depicted two guys kissing. I got very shocked, I had never seen someone with the courage to wear a shirt like that in public. I approached him pretending I was just into friendship, and we talked for a while. I took the courage to ask him if he was guy. He told me he was straight, but I was still suspicious. Since when would a straight guy wear that shirt? So we went dancing with our groups and I decided to start dancing next to him. I could see he was getting interested, looking at me often and smiling. So I called him to go chat in private in one of the small couches at the corner of the dancefloor. There, he told me he was gay, and he talked about his life and coming out experience. By the way, he's handsome, tall, dark skin, a proeminent nose and iranian heritage (which makes his shirt seem specially ironic). We talked about our past experiences and when I told him I had never kissed a guy before, he offered himself to be my first. I was very scared, not because I thought it would be bad (my body was burning for it) but because I was terrified that someone I knew would see us, and then my life would never be the same again. I looked around and saw no one, and then went for it.

(a couple of minutes in heaven)

I liked the kiss so we started making out, then we talked and I got to know him a bit more, and we went to dance again. We got back to the couches and now we kissed more fiercely, I was almost taking his shirt of right there (I wish we could have done it). The process repeated itself and in the end we made out five times in the same night, always in the same place. He gave me his facebook and I just added him,. and I dont think my brother or anyone else from my study group has caught us. (at least not during the kiss).

Im leaving to go back home next week, but hes at a hotel in the center of town, so Ill ask for his phone number and well meet there to have some fun together, if I have the time. But god, it was so amazing! I really wish I could do it again!

 

Actually, we did get caught, but by complete strangers, so it doesnt matter as much. There was a time 3 straight men sat in the couch next to ours, and he wanted to kiss me again. I said no because i thought they would do something, but he insisted saying that nobody cared. So we started doing it and when I opened my eyes again, those guys were gone. We had scared them off haha.

Well, hes with his friends in a hotel that was rented by the trip he went with. I did the same before so I know how it works. Why couldnt I be his roommate there, at least for a single night? ;-)

 

We are not in a relationship (how could we? We live in different continents), we just decided to hook up. I am glad he was single and also that he was open minded enough to not always want a relationship. One of my closest friends is also gay, but hes always saying that he hates hooking up and meaningless sexual encounters make him feel dirty. Different personalities, I guess. I dont really think about settling down right now, Im still young and unless someone turns out to be really special (it already happened but he was straight :-( ), I dont think Ill get into a relationship anytime soon. If I do, only after I fully come out, because it would be very hard to hide having a boyfriend from my family.

 

I just realized how funny is it gonna be when I come back from this trip and then my dad asks me, "So, my son, have you gotten any pretty girls there?" xD What do you guys think I should answer?

Also, follow my example (guys only) and sing mr sandman to yourself everytime you know another guy will enter your life. You never know and it also does not bite that its such a cute song!