A great way to end my dysphoria =)

Hi everyone. So a bunch of you saw my post in support about dysphoria and dealing with it...but today it ended quite abruptly because I met someone really awesome =)

My college does quidditch. yes it exists. Its about as full-contact and rough as rugby. I went to see my school's match today and met this girl there named Mel. Wow, is she fantastic!!!!!!!! I came out to her pretty quickly because it was a boy day and that just makes it easy to tell people (since its obvious im not physically male =P)...she seemed so awesome about it and told me she's bi. She said to use whatever pronouns I wanted (i did ask her)...

anyways shes really really cute, has the most amazing eyes, and has been flirting with me all afternoon!!!!! Best part? Shes single!

I am so happy right now because I'm realizing how confident the male side of me is and its awesome to feel like this. Im nervous because if anything comes of this I will most likely be coming out to my parents. Right now I am just basking in the idea that theres a really super good looking person that wants to flirt with me.

OFDJGKSLDF OMFG GUYS. GUYS I JUST. IM SPAZZING OKAY?????

 

Haha I knew that'd happen.

It looks really silly but its actually pretty intense. Teams run around with brooms between their legs (they have to hold them, penalty if it isnt between legs), the chasers toss the quaffle (volleyball) between each other and try to get through goal posts (pvc pipe or similar fashioned into circles, much like the movie, about 7' tall). Beaters have bludgers (dodgeballs) that they throw at people. Get hit with a bludger, gotta run to your goal posts and touch them before you can continue.

The snitch is a person dressed in bright yellow. In the persons back pocket is a sock/stocking painted yellow with a tennis ball in it. They run around (off-field, anywhere...pretty much anything goes for the snitch, ours sat down on the ball today)...seekers find/chase the snitch. First team to get the ball from the snitch's back pocket wins.

 

It took a while for me to learn. Mel explained a lot. Its pretty fun to watch but I wouldn't play haha.

 

Romi: Nope, we have several in NY that have teams =D And thanks!!!

jvn: it isss...thanks!

Suffocation: My names are in my signature bro XD

Alexander: No problem. I had to figure it out too. Its literally the opposite of euphoria...eu = good, dys = bad, phoria = feeling. Its like a really awful sadness about something that you can't shake. Check out my thread in Support "Dysphoria becoming more and more real"...that explains how I was feeling a bit.

 

Thank you =)

 

OMFG guys I just...um...

I spent the night with Mel?

And we were up til 5am?

And now I seriously need to come out to my parents as pan somehow? Because...last night was awesome and...I want it to last...

I am both over-the-top ecstatic and dreadfully frightened...

 

I am dying with how happy I ammmmmm XDDDDDDDDD...sorry I keep posting I just...XDDDDDDD

 

Thanks guys!

She is being really super understanding about my being semi-closeted. We are taking things kinda slow but still shocked at the fact that we barely met four days ago. We've felt this crazy instant connection and its a bit scary and confusing but wow...I can't wait until Monday when I can see her again. Thank god for video chats?

*bounce*

Oh yeah and she reverted me to girl =P...I didn't know that could actually be caused by something but apparently it can.

 

Its completely gotten rid of the sadness...its amazing! Gah...I am all giddy and stuff XD