So.... Ever since I was 10, I have been questioning my sexual orientation. For two years, I had said "Oh it's just a phase." "Oh, I'll grow out of it soon." But when I was 13 I was in denial, grievance, etc. But during that time period, I have been with two girlfriends, both of whom are great friends, but I was never really sexually attracted to them. Now I'm 14. I see a close friend of mine who is gay and whenever I see him I have mixed emotions and feelings, and I am attracted to him and I blush around him. But he is the first man I have ever had a crush on... but it's been 4 months of that crush..... so..... but I still think girls are really beautiful, and I do look at porn, but since 2012, 90% of it is gay. And I an really confused and I just want to figure this out.