okay then. I, do gays sext with girls? i know the potential dangers of it and so i never sent any pics or anything that revealed my identity. cuz i had that experience during the winter break not long ago. It all started when i started to chat with Dgaf over facebook. (dgaf isnt her real name btw) And so she replied that she couldnt chat with me cuz of her boyfriend nd stuff like that. I got her number and i texted her a warm greeting. She said hi to and the conversation went kinda sexual aafter that. she was tellin me her interests and one of them was watchin porn. I texted her back pointing that i do to just for laughs. But then after she replied that she wanted someone to watch with her and the message had a wink on it. Suddenly my crotch began to get rock hard after that, i didnt know why. All along i thought i was forcing myself when i fantasized with girls in the shower but that wasnt the case (it felt really good in the shower tho lol). i thought i had to have sex with someone for me to establish my sexual orientation. But i thoought that to be wrong as well. I went along with the text and it sort of escalated at the right time. I was at my bunk bed and i was telling her that my bday was comin up. She was playing around replying that i wanted a "big booty hoe" lol but then i texted back that i wanted her. After i sent that text, i really regretted it because it sort of slipped. But what i couldnt believe was that she agreed and i becaame more aroused after that. She would asked me what i would do to her and i let it all out. I started texting really dirty and descriptive with a touch of imagery. And her replies sort of turned me on so much that it hurted. Just thinking of her enjoying herself with my texts really turned me on and her texting back her reactions made me rock hard. after an hour of that( which was i think 3 rounds for her and i didnt even touch myself because my brother was in the room) I felt that my crotch released something and i looked down my shorts with a stain on it. i definately knew what it was and i had to wear a new pair right after i got off my bed. Was this normal? I thought to myself because to me it was even romanticizing about a crush 3 years ago(which was a girl) but then i thought another thing, -it was just texting thats impossible that you like both men and women- and so i took the latter route and dismissed that experince as part of a "phase" the next morning she texted me back with a warm goodmorning( and since she was a really horny girl i knew she wanted some more because i was a pro at it) It escalated quickly and once again i got aroused as well. i some how did it numerous times until the end of break when i had to work back on my book report. I had a clash of thoughts when i thought it was a phase because of my past homosexual experiences and erased all my heterosexual ones by dismissing them as a part of it and it depresses me . I would question why would i see myself with a woman and not a man romantically and think of erotic fantasies of women as well as sexting with them for the first time but i always suppress them. I sometimes believe its a phase but sometimes its not but im pretty sure that was a big sign to reconsider my sexuality.
