I have stalked EC forever, and have only recently made an account... Which is pretty sad. I'm a teenage girl, and most likely I am gay. I am still stumbling into a phase where I'm trying terribly hard not to be terrified of being gay. I have dreams where friends degrade me and call me out as gay... That's what scares me, friends that dissaprove. I have never really been an attention hound, but I always feel the creeping urge to conform. And I hate it, because deep down I know that's not the person I am. I'm freaking awesome being me. :eusa_danc