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How did you come to realise your sexuality?

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  1. MtnFr3sh

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    Well, for me, I didn't even consider myself attracted to guys until 6th grade. I mean, every time I would kiss a girl it just didn't feel right, it felt awkward, always kinda did. I never thought I might be gay though. Not until two things happened, when we started changing out in PE, looking at the other guys, this happened in 6th grade. So did something else, I stumbled upon things on the internet *coughs* anyway, after this and connecting how kissing a girl never felt right, discovered I was gay, but I denied it for roughly 3 years, all this time haviing relationships with girls, I was in denial heavily, then I just snapped out of it and accepted myself and was like. "Okay, I'm gay, so what."

    Anyway, how did you realize your sexuality?
     
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    I would think about boys all the time, and my brother like somehow had this underlying feeling I was gay. He would ask me constantly? "ARE YOU GAY?! HEY, YOU KNOW THEY HAVE A GAY PERSON IN OUR SCHOOL NOW. I THINK IT IS YOU." yada yada yada.

    I had the mindset: Deny! Deny! Deny! Anyhow, I eventually just said, you know what, I'm gay. Whatever.
     
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    When we were freshmen in college my best friend threw me up against the wall and put his tongue in my mouth after I asked him what he was being so broody about.

    No joke.

    And instead of pushing him off me, as I fully expected myself to do, I found myself with one hand on the back of his head and the other up his shirt on his stomach.

    So yeah, it was a very, "I did not know that about myself" moment.

    I mean, I've slept with women since I started sleeping with him, but there is no comparison at all and I've never felt such a primal sexual attraction to another person. I didn't realize what it felt like because I'd always been with women before.

    Once I knew the difference in levels of physical attraction, I knew which way I swung, as it were. *shrug*
     
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    A Texan using British English spelling, I am amazed.

    I don't even remember; I was about 12.
     
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    Which part is the British English part?
     
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    I thought long and hard about sex and decided it just didn't interest me at all. I've only had a few crushes, but that's it. They were never more than emotional crushes. inb4 "Well, you'll never know until you try."
    No. Thank you, but no.
     
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    It was the use of s in realise (but that was from another Texan)

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    I "knew" that there was something different about me a long time ago (so many clues, so little brains) but I realized it in a flash just over 2 weeks ago, a process of reaching certain conclusions from correct premises, quite logical and Earth-shattering.
     
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    I never considered myself straight or gay when I was too young to know. It just didn't cross my mind. Then I literally just started liking penis and guys around middle school and was like "lol im gey."
     
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    In the bak of my mind I've alwayz had this feelin I wuz gay but I officially decided a yr ago...I love guyz but I just prefer women mor than men..I'm not big on havin a relationship,I don't know the reason 4 this but iz me
     
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    13ish, saw gay porn, liked it, was in mental figuring out how I felt, also noticed my eyes were drawn to pants sometimes on guys.
     
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    I've pretty much known since seventh grade. I found... umm... stuff on the internet that I liked, but I was in denial anyways. That changed senior year of high school. I got a severe crush on one of my guy friends. At first, I didn't know what to think of it, but I realized quickly it was a crush and that I was gay.
     
  12. Oddish

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    In my younger teenage years it was somewhat of a fad to "be" bisexual and explore sexuality and that such. Pretty much all of my female friends at the time called themselves bisexual. Most of them somewhat grew out of their immature "phase," while I never did. As I got older, I kept realizing that my attraction to males were declining and it was more based on the fact that I was putting up an act, almost a barrier so I wouldn't have to deal with being fully gay and feel abnormal due to it. So, here I am, age 17 and have fully accepted myself with the fact that I like girls and only girls.

    The asexual part? Didn't find out about it until the internet. Thanks to tumblr, though. I actually remember feeling anomalous compared to others my age when it came to masturbation, porn and sex. I never masturbated when I was younger (and still don't now), have never watched porn besides when my asshole friends sent it as a joke and some gifs that have come up on tumblr, and my desire for sex is this || low. The little space between the l's there. Not even that much. But I'm relieved that I finally found a definition for it, because I felt there was something seriously wrong with me for not desiring sexual intimacy, or lacking sexual attraction to people.
     
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    I have been married for ten years and I had one bf when I was in my teens, plus there was a lad I used to mess about with a bit. I never had physical attractions to men, I liked a couple but that was emotionally based, or I admired them or something. Sex with a man has never even come close to what I've wanted it to be, it's like I've really wanted to be satisfied but it's just never happened. Anyway, as the years have gone on, I've found myself strangely drawn towards women. Like if I happened to see porno, which I'm not interested in really, I'd be looking at the woman. I used to get the odd dream about being with a girl and I'd wake up and feel slightly sick, like, omg, you can't think that. Then towards the end of last year the thoughts and dreams got a bit more and I had to push myself to think, ok, there may be something in this. Then when I opened the door a crack, the flood gates just opened. I'm kind of like that though, I do seem to have these times in my life where it's like a switch being flicked in my head and my whole world changes. I think it was more a case of the sea wall being breached on this occasion but it's happened, and now I'm pretty sure that I am a lesbian. I mean, being attracted to girls and not men is kind of a big give away isn't it? Plus, I have my first major crush, I mean one based on physical attraction as well as just liking the person, and that is on another girl, so it seems pretty clear cut to me.
     
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    WELL i was attracted to girls always, i loved them all. but one day my best friend showed me some photos and then mastubrated me, i did it to him too, gradually i felt i was both gay and atttacted to girls too, so i became a bisexual and i do jusitice to both with ease and fineessee
     
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    was always sort of questioning why I got on better with lads not girls . the hitting the nail on the head moment was after PE-sports in the showers and my eyes were everywhere all
    different shapes and sizes was soon hard and excited .:slight_smile:
     
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    I never thought about sex until I'm 15, because I was too young and I was always busy at school (like a bookworm haha:slight_smile:). And I even didn't realise(Will I use BrE or AmE? no idea...) what the word 'gay' means until 16! We don't have so much info about sex and hardly talk about it in China. Maybe it's our culture.

    However there are quite some clues before I realised what a 'gay' is. Such things are like, I had some small senses about things related to boys when I was in primary school. And I liked to hug my elder cousin brother before sleeping! (He is definitely straight and really hates it!) When I was in junior high school, I was not interested in girls, not like the other guys. So, I have no sense about female at all. I even don't like songs by women, etc.

    The time when I knew 'gay' was in senior high school. I was between 15~16 then. I heard my classmates saying some words which sound strange, so I looked it up on the Internet, and that's it. :slight_smile: Then I came up with the clues above and I knew I was probably a gay. I was kinda surprised when I found that. And of course I questioned about it for a long time. But several weeks ago I knew it for sure: I am gay. And I'm tired of questioning about it!

    Now my gay-feeling is growing stronger, and sometimes I daydream about it, imagining that if I could have a boyfriend then I must be loving him to death!! :slight_smile: That's it!
     
  17. Ardelia

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    I think I was 6 years old when I first realized my attraction towards women.
    From then on my sexuality was never mystery to me,and I never denied it(to myself).
     
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    I've just always been attracted to both sexes. I didn't have that ah ha! moment until I was in college.
     
  19. CounterRev03

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    I guess I've always "known" in a way. It became apparent that I wasn't "Normal" when I developed a 'crush' on my teacher in kindergarten who is a woman. But what made it absolutely concrete was when I started to really notice my female peers at school in the form of attraction, rather, instead of envying their looks, I wanted to BE WITH them.
    Then came the many years of denial xD
    My real answer is that I had begun to ACCEPT my sexuality and stepped out from the closet with my eyes adjusting to the new light of life just before entering year 11. Ahaha xD
     
  20. Shadow7796

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    I was in a heterosexual relationship earlier this year, and I guess it kinda made me connect the dots. I have always had attractions for guys and barely any attraction (physically) towards girls, but me, being my relatively-unaware self, thought it was normal to feel this, so I did not think it was a big deal. It wasn't until my first relationship that I realized that I am actually gay.