Am I the only one or are there others who feel as if they could do more for their family name? i.e doing something that everyone who bares your name could brag about it. Though I am at odds with my family more than I would like, I do find myself wanting to be apart of their circle by means of having pulled-off something that they could atleast pretend to like me over. Especially in regards to my father. Some days I wake up feeling like crap because i'm not tall, super-athletic, have a deep voice, admired by others, etc. Does anyone else feel like this sometimes?
Yes I do I feel kinda depressed trying to do more but family always downgrades its so fucking annoying
This is something I struggle with pretty much everyday...but for me, it's a combination of failing family expectations and internalized shame about myself.
My dad doesn't like the fact that I am not athletic, either. He keeps pushing me to try and play sports, but I really have no interest in it. He used to talk to me about being a big althete, one of the short ones, but apparently is really good. He doesn't seem to take into account my poor hand-to-eye coordination. :l
