Something I've been wanting to write for a while..Tell me what you think?

I remember the first time I saw you and how I swore my heart froze. I guess I instantly fell for your eyes, your smile, and your skin. Never had I felt this way before, such electricity. I remember the first time I spoke to you. What a mess. My face must have been so red as you spoke and my reply was so chattered and unorganized. What a fool I was. I still wonder how you didn't pick up on my intense desire for your body to be pressed against mine. I remember those long talks we would have on the phone. Your laugh and your voice always made me feel warmest, even in the cold winter months. Not with anyone else would I have dared to listen to such complaints about things that were so silly to me. But I desired to hear your voice and to perhaps be the solution to your problems.
You made me feel alive but simultaneously you reminded me of how alone I was with your n disguised name and how you wouldn't talk to me at public locations. Who could blame him? I would think. I am no one to be seen with. But I still felt that electricity that I had never felt and that I have never felt since then. I still craved for it to consume me and for your body to be pressed against mine and for that warmness in your voice to hold me always but as things are too often in my life, it was not meant to be. For you were a boy and I was as well but you did not crave for our bodies to be pressed nor did you feel this electricity. I was a friend to talk to. At times I had fooled myself into believing that you had felt the same but it was never so. Simply the tricks that the brain can play on a soul so starved of affection and a body to hold. You were my first crush and I do not believe that I will ever be able to again feel the way I had on those long phone calls with your voice and your laughter.