Who said you suffer from it? From Wikipedia: Internalized homophobia refers to negative stereotypes, beliefs, stigma, and prejudice about homosexuality and LGBT people that a person with same-sex attraction turns inward on themselves, whether or not they identify as LGBT.
It means that you have trouble accepting homosexuality (or things along those lines) because you aren't yet at peace with the fact that you're gay. Somebody else will have a more clear answer, I'm sure.
Well in my case, my parents taught me to be homophobic, so every time I see a gay couple I recoil unconsciously. It's basically where homophobia is how you were brought up and it basically becomes a part of you and then you turn out to be gay. That's where lots of self-hating gays and such come from.
I do remember your previous posts mentioning you wish that you were not gay or something along those lines, is that how you are still feeling?
As others have said. Wikipedia article describes it perfectly. It's actually a common problem amongst LGBT people..
Yeah, this is something I'm working as hard as I can to overcome. It's kept me in denial for so damn long. I've never really been very afraid of other gay guys, but whenever I was the subject of the thoughts, I was sooooo much worse on myself than I was on anyone else. I was completely disgusted by myself for quite some time. I could except anyone in this world being gay, but I could never accept me being gay. Well, until recently, hehe. I was the same way with my ABDL desires. Essentially, it's about the struggle many of us I'm sure face with allowing ourselves to be gay, even if we have nothing against homosexuality in others. I hope you come to a place where you are better able to accept yourself for how you are, no matter what that might mean. Hugs!
Yeah, I would imagine you have it. What you've been posting about, feeling ashamed of your sexuality, not wanting to be seen as gay etc. all originates from internalised homophobia. As others have said, its homophobia directed towards one's own sexuality. Loads of people suffer from it, some worse that others.
