Last night, I dreamed about having oral sex with one of my former classmates and I've been thinking about him all day, like I had the hots for him. He's boyish like my boyfriend, only the classmate is heavier. I don't get why I would have had that dream.
It could've just been random. Most of the time, dreams shouldn't be taken heavily. It's just a visual representation of what your mind's been processing, whether that's consciously or subconsciously. It may mean nothing at all. Even if it did mean something, as long as you don't act on it and love your boyfriend, it shouldn't be a problem. It may just be a trifling thought, you know? I've had sex dreams with random people that I know, and it hasn't bothered me at all, and I haven't really been attracted to these people ever, as well, for reference.
You probably have a subconscious desire to have oral sex with him. Since you have a boyfriend, and I'm guessing its a closed relationship, I wouldn't advise pursuing it.
Hehe. My point is that you shouldn't feel bad. You can't help it, and sex is a natural and normal thing. Honouring the trust in your relationship is the important thing. Its possible that this is symbolic of something else, I suppose, but its probably just the simple and straightforward answer.
What I don't understand, Hex, is that even though as a kid I was forced to perform oral sex, I actually really enjoy giving head. HOWEVER, I will not bottom EVER after he did that to me as well.
