Please help, im so confused about myself. Its hard for me to explain as i dont understand and im far too worried but the thing is that i dont know if im gay or not. I loved girls all my life, they turn me on until a few months ago when a girl broke my heart and something changed, I cant get aroused from gay porn or looking men or even picturing it but if i read gay roleplay from a porn story site, i get aroused but then i get aroused from messing around with my best friend (who is a girl and she is likes to cuddle and stuff), then i love a girl but i find worrying as i dont know which side i am on and i dont want to hurt this girl :tears: as i hate hurting people, it makes me feel like crap so please help me understand what is going on with me
I think your emotions are running wild especially as you have been hurt. You could just be bi, and since your recent hurt that may have triggered inner feelings. Just go with it, hang in there and talking to the EC community will help you to accept your sexuality. Good luck
Well, if you don't find it arousing to even think about guys unless it's about gay roleplay on a porn story site... It wouldn't seem like you like other guys. The thing about erotica or even flat out sex in text or even just stories in general is that it allows you to identify as the narrator or one of the characters even if you're not even close to one of the characters. For example, to pull a page from popular young adult fiction, The Hunger Games is about this pretty strong and determined girl. I don't identify with her, but I did identify with her while I read. That doesn't mean much, though. It's almost inherent in reading that you identify with something even if you normally wouldn't. If I had to bet, I'd think that you'd get similarly or even much more aroused from 'straight roleplay' on that same site (I assume it has 'straight roleplay' as well). Could you see yourself cuddling with a guy? Living with a guy and building a future with him? Actually doing sexual stuff with a guy? It sounds like the answer to those questions is no... and so you wouldn't really have much to worry about.
I don't know that you really need to label it at this point. As you mentioned, you were hurt from a girl recently, so you could just be upset and confused from that, or you could be bi or gay. I think I would just experience the feelings that you are feeling right now, and label it later if you feel the need to label your sexual orientation.
