Hi! I think I'm les, but I'm seriously not sure. I'm 18 this year and nobody but ONE person (which is a guy that likes me. Long story but we're good friends now) knows about this. For my family, my parents are definitely homophobic, not sure about my siblings though. I feel like if I don't say anything, people would definitely assume I'm straight cause I don't fit the stereotype of a lesbian at all (and I'm shy so yeah. Cause most lesbians in my society are loud and cool and all) and I don't know what to do! Should I come out or should I just focus on my studies first? And my friends, they are also kinda homophobic which makes me feel kinda sad. I feel like I can't be my real self and be REALLY close to anyone like this. It's like for the past few years my friends have been talking about cute guys and initially I went along and pretended I'm obsessed over those cute guys too but now I just kinda not care unless they are really handsome (I will be attracted but not in the romantic sense) but sometimes I really wonder if I'm gay or straight. I've had a few major crushes on girls but I guess all the girls seem to be straight (and worse one of the girls even helped a guy to woo me ) so it's kinda sad lol. Or should I just wait until I have the chance to go overseas/migrate to a safer LGBT place? Ahh idk and I'm quite sad I have no close LGBT friends so I have to come to this forum and seek advice. I'm just super scared that when I do come out I have no support and my life will be over and blahblah. But don't worry I'm nt suicidal or anything I'm just feeling it kinda sucks to be in this situation. :icon_sad: I've thought of going to lgbt bars but uh I'm afraid ill get caught or smth cause the place I live in is really small. A little red dot. Yeah. Felt so much better just typing that out.
Hi~ I am 18 and bi. So, don't worry you aren't alone. I have the same thoughts as you, as I too feel like I can't be my real self around anyone. For now, given your circumstance I would likely stay in the closet in your real life but talk with people online so you don't feel so lonely. I have been doing that for a bit and it does help. Sorry, can't give much more help than that because I am also new.
