Hey guys, I tried posting this before, but i guess i did something wrong. To make a long story short. I'm in a really weird place right now, I don't know if i'm gay, straight or just overly curious. It started about two years ago, when i was in high school, a few friends of mine experimented a few times, watched porn together and you know those kind of things. It didn't really bother me at first, but I started finding that i found guys attractive, and i slowly started watching gay porn. I've always been one of the cool guys, had a lot of friends and played football. So the whole idea freaks me out, it's weird me dating or being with another guy in public, scares me. I've never considered myself gay or bi or anything like that. But I've never had a serious relationship with a girl, never really felt the need to chase after them in high school. Don't get me wrong i find them attractive and some are sexy as hell, but there's something about a guy that just gets to me( not all guys, but some). I've kind of been considering trying to find a boyfriend and try out the whole relationship thing out, but i've never talked myself into it. I guess right now i'm still trying to figure everything out. I consider my self straight, but come on lets be honest there's only so much that you can do and yet still be "curious".
Like you mentioned in that reply of yours: "At the end of the day, the only person that has to live with you is you." If you really get taken by guys, I mean go on and try it out...there's no harm in testing the waters. Don't let fear control you...if you let fear control you then it's game over man. It may sound (and look) odd dating a man and being out in public with him, but if it feels right then by all means, go out and do it man. There's lots of people that never have thought to consider themselves gay or bi (I may be personally speaking as the thought has never crossed my mind early on in life). I think I said all that comes to mind at this point. The only part that I can do more is saying: Good luck pal (*hug*) I wish you the best in your self-search.
Yeah, I understand what you're saying. And maybe i should take my own advice. It's just all so new to me, I never really gave it much thought in the past, i just always used to brush it off. I'm just trying to come to terms with all of this. I'm not afraid of anyone judging me or anything, i'm an adult so i can make my own decisions and be with who i want to be with. but like i said before the whole thing of being " out" and in a relationship with another guy, is going to take some getting used too. the awkwardness of the whole thing, you know what i mean? To be honest this is the first time that I've ever even really talked about this with anyone, and even gave it a slight possibility of the fact that i may actually be gay. the whole thing is new.
