I'm bisexual but for the most part I am more attracted to other guys. I've fantasized romantically about both sexes and sexually about females (weird because im rarely more tyan emoionally attracted to girls) and have watched and been aroused by gay porn:icon_redf. Not too long ago, when I came out at school (or, at least, kinda came out to anyone whocared cuz imnot real popular at high school) a classmate who barely knows me pretty much approached me and asked to experiment. I was said no (and tried my best not say anything else):***: but it got me wondering and the idea of actually having sex with ANY guy feels dirty to me. I can't imagine having romantic sex with a guy. I mean, IDK much about romance, I've not even had my first kiss, but it's hard for me to imagine real sex with a guy being romantic or pleasurable. Will it change when I find the right person? Anyone else feel/felt the same at my age?
The "dirtiness" you feel could stem from the fact that you are young (not sure how old you are) and that it is what society and external influences want you to think. It is a foreign idea to you and not one society programs us to have. Porn can be confusing and depending on your age can be pleasurable not solely based on if it is straight/gay porn (ie. don't read into being aroused by gay porn too much). If the idea of having sex with a guy repulses you, what made you convinced you were bi? If you see a guy and say he is attractive, or a really good looking guy and get aroused, then I think the idea of having sex with one feels dirty because of outside influences and you are young and still accepting the idea of romance with a guy which will come in time. How come you turned down your classmate? Not attractive? Nerves? Don't know him?
