Hi, So I have been with my boyfriend for three years and do some anal play on both ends. When we first got together he use to be ashamed for wanting me to play with his butt until he finished now is mvh better and I am the one struggling. From day one he has been really open about me liking girls and guys. He has also told me he like and jerks off to gay/ tranny porn. I was relieved because I have always been interested and turned on by both. We have even talked about inviting third person to mess around. Sine I was a kid I have loved to wear guys clothes, have short hair styles and act like a guy more than a girl I even tried to pee standing up several times. I have always been told it was because of my brother and dads influences on me. I have played with the idea of having a penis and often times imagine my self in the guys position in anything. I am very aware I am a girl and I do enjoy my vagina and hope to have kids one day on top of my step son. Here is my trouble/struggle. I find my self wanting a penis more and more but not to loose my boobs. I am so confused on what is happening to my brain and o have no idea how to talk to my boyfriend about it. He is obviously OK with me playing with him and he is really in to enjoying my butt. I just don't want to loose him because of some stupid phase if it is a phase. Has anyone dealt with this before? If so how have you handled it? Anything would be helpful right I'm at such a loss.
