Hi, I am a 22 year old guy, average-short (5 foot 4inches), little chubby. Anyway, I have throughout almost all my life been into girls, but recently I have found my self checking out some guys as well, especially muscular guys. It all started with with my mate (jon, 6 foot 3inches, scrawny) who i had been really close mates for years with, started working out. We were about 18 when we decided to working out together, after a few months it was clear John was really serious about 'Getting massive', however I got over it quickly and stopped. Over the next few months, I got started at university (Studied many hours drive from home) and the I completed stopped excising and started to get out of shape while john was showing the first signs of 'getting big'. We went from being close mates to not seeing each other for 10 months. By the end of the first year of uni I came home for the first time and i wanted to catch up with some of my mates. First day I was home I txted my mates if anyone was available, only jon replied saying i was welcome to come over to watch a movie at his place. AS i hadn't seen him in a while i quickly replied saying I will be over around 7. I got to jons 30 minutes early and once I knocked I heard these loud noise (like heavy weights hitting the ground), and heard heavy footsteps walking towards the door. The door then clicked an opened and this amazing figure stood at the door, no clothes other than the very very short shots. I almost fell over, John had become huge, big bulging muscular legs, perfect six pack abs, pumped pecs and basketball sized shoulders along with huge popping vascular arms. It felt like i stood there for eternity looking at his perfect body, then i realised I was starting to get a bulge from pants. Fortunately Jon, did not notice and and told me to come in. As i was early john had not finished his workout, he said we was happy to stop working out, but I almost forced him to keep working out, I just wanted to see him get pumped up. He only worked out for another 10 minutes or so but watching him workout his arms almost made me explode (so much so, I had to go to toilet afterwards). I just coudnt get enough of his body, I just wanted to feel his muscles, however never had felt anything like this before I was Embarrassed (and still am) and I made up a excuse that I had to go home. Hoping over time I would get over his perfect body, this didn't work, all i thought about over the next weeks, was jons ripped body and how safe I felt around him. Over the past 2 years since that event, I have been able touch his rock hard muscles and watch him work out a lot more (had him as a personal trainer for while). I have been mostly able to control myself around him (I probably go in to hug him more often than most mates do) However I am pretty sure I haven't made it too obvious that I 'Fancy' him. The strange thing is, I still find many women attractive and I only find muscular men attractive. However I have found I have started to look a muscular men more and more over time, and still Fantisise over Jons body very regularly. Put simply i am just a little confused, am I just going through a stage? Am I gay? Ps, Sorry For the long story, and the grammar is most likely terrible Thanks
Well, you sure don't sound straight. My guess is that you're bisexual or maybe you'd just prefer the label of queer.
I think the safest and easiest thing to say is that you are "not straight". It is to early, and I know to little about you to say what you are, so I would encourage you to not label yourself yet. What I can say is welcome to this community, this is a great place to stimulate self growth! I would also encourage you to work on your fantasies more. Without porn, try and get aroused. Do this for a couple days/weeks, and see whether you are thinking about men, or women, what the fantasy consists of, etc. best of luck!
