I was miserable, and I had to change that. So I just came out to my sister!

After this:
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gener...ly-due-torrments-coming-out-what-do-i-do.html

And this:
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gener...-like-im-going-have-full-blown-melt-down.html

I decided something needed to be done. It's a horrible truth but I'm fortunate to understand it; I know that if you're miserable, you have to take steps to change things. I'm not saying it's an easy thing to do, but if you just sit there and take no action nothing is going to change.

So. Just half an hour ago, I decided, I'm going to come out to my sister tonight. I ran a bath to unwind, and in a bath there really isn't much to distract you, I did some thinking. A thought crossed my mind. It was, if you were actualy going to tell her you'd be more nervous. On that thought I picked up my phone and messaged my sister. I just said that the main reason I want to move out of home is that I'm gay and it's making me struggle academically. I did not think I just wrote it and sent it.

Her response was simple, there was no hate, no talk of phases, nothing but a plain and simple 'I love you, and will support you 100%'.

In a somewhat reworded sense, it was one small step for mankind, one giant leap for man.

 

Thanks, there were a few tears but feels pretty good.

 

Hmm. Thought question. The first few moments afterwards we very much much 'oh my god' moments, but now I don't really feel any better, it's more the fact that I know it will makes things better. Hopefully it'll just be a little bit easier and a little less scary from now.

Actually I do feel its a lot less scary. Telling friends I guess can be an awkward thing to bring up, but now I'm out to a family member they seem a whole lot less confronting.

 

Thanks all, I'll be seeing her tonight, which I'm slightly dreading just because there will be that awkwardness.