I'm sure you've all heard this story before but I always knew I was bi. Even more than that, I always knew I thought more women were attractive than guys but I've had bfs for the last 4 yrs. Two relationships that lasted two years. I'm still with the most recent one. But we broke up over the Summer and all I wanted to do was date women but I am still in love with him & we started getting back together but ... I can't seem to stop wanting women. And if I'm honest I'm terrified. I went to an LGBT night and I bought back this really gorgeous girl. I explained to her my life is very confusing and we didn't do anything but I had to tell my bf that I've been feeling this way and that I don't know who I am or what I am. If I'm honest I don't actually want to like women anymore. I'm just too scared and I don't want to lose my bf either but as we all know it's not something that you can just change and I hate myself for saying but I wish I could. I got so upset I cut myself which I havn't done since I was 14 or so. I just really need someone who's been here to tell me what's going on.
