Hi guys, I am officially coming out to a good friend of mine tomorrow and she will be the first person to know that I am seriously questioning my sexuality. I know for certain that she will be suppportive, because she has told me once that I could tell her anything, whether it is about guys or girls. So in that aspect I have nothing to worry about. I have been really excited these last two weeks and have literally been counting the days, because I really, really want to tell her. But now that it is almost time, I am getting more and more nervous. I trust her a lot and I know that she will support me and I know that it willl probably help me a lot if I could talk to someone about it, but I am just so scared! And I don't really know why, because I am so lucky to have no reason to be scared to tell her. It is just that I don't know how to tell her. She knows that I want to tell her a 'secret', so maybe I could just say. 'About that thing I wanted to tell you... I think I am probably a lesbian. Maybe I am bisexual, but I am probably a lesbian. I never told anyone this before and I have really been struggling with it.' But I know that when I stand there, that I will be too scared to be able to remember some rehearsed lines. Will it turn out okay if I just say whats on my mind and see how it goes? I really am nervous as sh*t. My stomach hurts and my whole body is tensed. Maybe I am just scared because she is the first one to know and when I tell her, I really tell her and it will all become real. That is a really scary thought. I am sorry to bother you with this, I just really needed to tell someone about it. (And I know I say 'real' a lot, but I can't help it today) Love, Nolisa Ps. This has nothing to do with this, but I just feel so proud about this silly thing, I want to share this great thing too I bought this blouse a few years back and I wore it a few times, but then I realised it made me look really gay and I was afraid that people might find out that I was a lesbian, because I wore that shirt (I know, I know). But today I took it out of my closet and wore it to school and wearing that blouse made me feel like I was out to everybody in the whole world and even when I had my coat on, when I walked past everyone, I felt so damn proud