I'm a graduate student and I serve as a teaching assistant for undergraduate classes. Today I went to set up for one of my classes. I hooked up my computer to the projector and went to open up to the program we use in the class. When I opened my computer up, I had my internet on and EC was open!!!!! :eek: I went "uh-oh" and closed out of it as quickly as I could. Luckily there were only two students in the room at that time. One of them I don't think looked up from her phone, and the other one, if she saw, didn't say anything. After I got over the initial shock I realized something. For the last 10 years or so I was deathly afraid that other people perceived me as not being straight. Even last semester, I would have completely lost my mind if this had happened. But today I'm laughing it off. So one of my students might know I'm LGBT? So what? What's the worst that could happen? I'm kind of in awe that I've gotten to the point where I can say this. So embarrassment and all, this was kind of a big moment for me. Just thought I'd share it with y'all.
This is rather funny! But as you said, really an important step for you toward accepting yourself, Congrats!
I go through the same things. When I was closeted even to myself, I made sure no one could find anything regarding the gay culture on my computer. I wrote in journals and hid them in sock drawers. I made sure to just completely keep it behind closed doors. Now that I am at least out to myself and one other person, I still feel like hiding from complete strangers. I mean, my family, sure I don't want to turn their world upside down. But random people? I guess it's all in a day's work.
Congrats, I'm kinda surprised myself how much more comfortable this site has made me with my sexuality too.
