I'm 15 and I faced problem of being a gay... I don't really like boys but I like to see and even wanted to touch someone's penis... I'm at a secondary boys school, which has no girls in the school... Maybe the environment of the school changes my sexuality but I wanted to be normal as everyone.. Before that, I touched and sucked my cousin's penis when he was sleeping and also do the same thing to each other with one of my friends.. I know it sounds weird and disgusting but I just like that kind of feeling... I started to have this gay actions when I was young...I also do look gay porn... But now when I heard my friends talking about gay stuffs , I kind of feel embarrassed.. If my friends know my condition, I scared they will repel me and even don't want to be friends with me anymore... I don't really want to lose them, and I really want to be straight like everyone... What should I do now?? I can't refused myself to not being gay..:help::help::bang::bang:
It doesn't sound weird and disgusting to me. You know, because I'm gay. Why are you gay? Because you got lucky. Lex
i don't like penis at all (probably because i am a lesbian ) but you are gay because you are FABULOUS!
Ok, first off, let's just forget about these words "everyone" and "normal". You won't be able to think clearly with words like that all up in your mindspace. Nobody's normal. Then again, I'm about as not normal as it gets. I'm transgender, female to male, and I like guys. I'm essentially trying to become a gay guy. If you have a "condition", kid, I am jealous of it. :lol: I know there's still a lot of stigma when it comes to LGBT topics and individuals, but you know what? There is nothing wrong with you, whether you're curious, gay, bi, whatever. Welcome to EC.
I think you're unsure. I agree with Titagel that you have to read and research more. Read Wikipedia articles, forums, and talk to anyone whom you think has gone through the same phase. The internet pretty much contain all that you need to know more about yourself. With your friends in the picture, slowly, as you get to know more about yourself, introduce yourself to them also. For the meantime, don't be worry, if you turn out to be gay, you'll be okay. And congrats, you are born to belong to the most dynamic and fabulous people in the world.
