So, first off, this is my first thread-posting on this site, so YAY!!!!! Secondly, if it starts to feel like I'm rambling, getting off topic, or sounding as stiff as a robot, my apologies. I have aspergers, and I can't help it at times. Anyway, I'm straight, and I prefer tomboys. Athletic, intelligent girls who aren't afraid to try new things, or get their hands dirty, or throw down and scrap, and will pick a tuxedo over a dress any day of the week... Those are the girls I like! If I had the opportunity to escort a lovely lady to a dance, or get married while wearing matching tuxes, I'd be the happiest guy alive! Thing is though, up until 2 or 3 years ago, I kinda kept this part of me (the androgyny fetish) a secret. I dropped a few hints to a few friends when I first started texting and using Facebook and Twitter, but I think I only officially "came out" to maybe one, two, three or so people, and I kinda hate the fact that I used technology to do it as opposed to opening up to them in person. My parents and little sister found out about this fetish of mine after going through the internet search history on our old computer a few years back, and we don't talk about it very much because I'm embarrassed by the way they found out. I should also point out before I go any further that I have a reputation literally everywhere I go for being the weird guy who does unusual stuff that nobody forgets. Haha! Thankfully, people love me because of my uniqueness, which I've always embraced publicly and freely. However, I've kinda felt at times that being open about this particular fetish of mine would make some people uncomfortable, so I've been careful about how I talk about it in public. Last year (my senior year of high school), I wanted to try to use my artistic passions as a way to embrace this fetish, getting a few of my friends to help me out with an idea I had. I wanted to do a group photoshoot, some of my friends would be crossdressing, and the theme was gonna be based on the poker game scene from Casino Royale, with a little bit of Spy VS Spy thrown in there. The majority of the girls would be in tuxes, and a few of the guys would be dressed as showgirls. Unfortunately, I never managed to get this project out of the blueprint stage, but I did manage to be upfront and "come out" to a few of my friends (I'd say maybe 3-4 girls, possibly a guy or two), and because we're all very artistic people, they were okay with it and embraced my creativity (ARTISTS ARE AWESOME!). A few months ago, I started college as one of 13 Freshman Studio Art Majors, and I wanted to use the college's art club as a way to give the photoshoot a second chance. The art club also embraced my fetish, and were willing to help me with the project so long as everyones' schedules didn't conflict with anything anyone had going on. Unfortunately, I didn't like being away from home, so I transferred after one semester (still waiting for the official acceptance letter even as I type this post), and once again the project never left the blueprint stages, but I'm at least thankful that the people there accepted me, and embraced my creativity. (I still keep in contact with them here and there too.) So that's the backstory, now I'm gonna get to the main concern on my mind. I want to be upfront and honest to another friend of mine about this side of me. We were in middle school and high school together, and we had our first college semesters on the same campus. I even asked her out once, and had offered to let her spend the holidays this year with my family. The reason why I feel like "coming out" to her is because when I was first drawing up the blueprints for the photoshoot project back in high school, I had cast her as the leading female protagonist. She was gonna be our James Bond in the white tux at the poker table. I'm pretty sure she already knows about this fetish of mine, based on how I had been talking to people involved in the shoot (not to mention a few of my guy friends had pretty much spilled the beans to nearly our whole grade that I was kinky), but I just wanna come clean for the sake of coming clean. I want to tell her that this project was my way of openly expressing what I find attractive, and that I hope it doesn't change anything between us. Sometime this week, I'm gonna send her a text, ask her how she's doing, and see if she feels like coming home to hang out sometime within the next few weeks. If she's available, I'll "come out" to her either while we're in her car, or while we're eating. Any advice, or do I really even need any advice?
Well, I think you're worrying yourself a little too much about your attraction. Heheh, I mean I think girls look great in suits and with short cut hair and all that jazz. You don't really have to explain to everyone that you are attracted to girls that fit this description man ^_^'
