ever since i was little i have always anted to get close to other boys and then when i got a bit older i loved to imagine boys were stronger then me i then got older and wanked over gay porn i find attracted to boys i wanna do stuff with boys but everytime i think of coming out i feel guilty im 14 going on 15 am i please help
Well first are there other gay kids at your school. If so then tell them (Don't include the porn part) and they will understand that you don't want to come out to everyone. I would start by telling a close friend not telling the everyone at once. Don't worry your not the only one who wants to get with other guys and is not out everyone (Hello). But in order to date you need to be out to other guys and you will know if they are into you. So also don't rush into a relationship, come out, find other gay guys at your school and first be friends with them.
The worst thing you can do at this stage is freak out.. If there is somebody you trust or if you know any other gay kids at your school tell them first as they are most likely to be supportive. And don't rush into it all, believe me it hurts a lot more to be "outed" because you rushed into things rather than taking things slowly. And don't feel guilty about coming out, it takes a lot of courage to do it so take your time with it. One thing a friend said to me when I was struggling to decide whether or not I wanted to be out to everyone (before I got outed at school of course) was "Never be something you're not, if you're trying to be something else for someone else's sake, that would be a huge mistake." Best of luck with everything
