I did it.. Now what.. I'm feeling like i'm lost now..

Well you are one brave mofo (dofo?) for being so open with your best friend. I admire that.

But it sounds like he might be either straight or very confused/scared. It sounds like you have all the ingredients to make a relationship but on his end lust is not part of it.

Maybe you should ask him point blank if he has any feelings for you, and if the answer is anything short of "Yes I do!!" then I say you should move on. If he says something along the lines of "yes but I just need some time to figure it out" I wouldn't hold my breath; it's possible he loves you as a friend, and wishes he could be attracted to you because he feels so connected to you, but isn't actually attracted to you, and as a result is confused as to what he wants to do because he is worried about losing your attention, even though he isn't actually attracted.

That last part would be my biggest concern: that he's stringing you along because you are treating him well and giving him just the kind of attention he wishes he could get from a girl.

It hurts to crush on someone who can't like you back, but I say you should confront him and move on. I hope that your friendship remains strong, and that you find a guy (or girl) who will like you back.

 

How exciting for you! You get a fresh start in a new country. You did this brave thing, your friend stuck by you, and everything is great apart from the fact that it fell short of happily-ever-after. And now you have this opportunity to start with a clean slate in a new place, where I'm sure you'll meet new people and start slowly extricating your life from your friend's. I would take this as an opportunity to develop separately from him.

Maybe I'm too much the optimist. And I don't really know what your life is like. I'm just assuming based on the fact that you both seem to be moving forward. But anyways do you think you'll keep in touch? I hope you do and that you have lots of stories for each other about your adventures abroad.

I do have something to add here: the first girl I dated was when I wasn't ready to be out, and wasn't sure about my sexuality. So I would pull her in and push her away, and she was a terrible person for me to explore my identity with because she kept pressuring me to move forward at a normal relationship pace, and I kept hesitating until eventually I broke it off. My point is that even if he is questioning and everything, he might be feeling too pressured from you. Hopefully if you both go abroad and live your separate lives you'll move on and he'll figure his stuff out.

Best of luck.

 

He said he is 'maybe' gay or 'bi-curious'. It sounds as if he may be gay, but is in a fragile position and may not want to admit it to himself or other people.

You may have to give him time, or simply ask him whether he is interested in you. Its a tough call.

 

I agree with King that he needs time. If he does like you, he'll probably tell you eventually.