Tonight's the night...

Well, the waiting is finally over. I'm meeting up with my oldest and dearest friend tonight and planning to come out to her. I'm nervous, excited... don't really know what at this point but I know I will feel much better after it's all out in the open. This conversation is so overdue... probably 20+ years overdue.

Wish me luck!

 

So, I did it!

It caught me off guard at first because I had envisioned us chatting a little in her apartment before heading out to dinner. But I had offered to drive us so she could have a few drinks, and she met me downstairs and hopped in the car. I thought at first I was going to chicken out but I had decided firmly that I wasn't going to do that. So, I pulled over before we got going and just said to her that I had something I needed to talk to her about. She got all worried at first and I had to tell her it was nothing bad, just so she wouldn't think I was dying or something LOL.

So, then I just blurted it out... "I'm gay!". And she smiled, and over-dramatically put her hand to her mouth and jokingly said "I'm shocked!" And then I told her about my girlfriend of the past 8 years and it was the same reaction. So then we both laughed and I said "and in other shocking news the sky is blue and the sun rises in the east!".

To be honest this was the reaction I had expected. I mean we have known each other since we were 14 and for the past 8 years I have lived overseas with my girlfriend and have never talked about being with a man. But what was really great is that she waited all this time for me to be ready to tell her. And she was prepared for that never to happen if I was never ready to come out to her. She said she was just so overjoyed to know that I am happy and in a loving relationship. I'm sort of getting teary eyed just writing this now thinking about it.

The rest of the evening was just like our usual nights out... with a few extra topics of conversation thrown in LOL. I feel great this morning. So now I'm already thinking about who to come out to next. My family is still way down the list but who knows.

Thanks to everyone on here for your support during the past couple of months. It has really helped reading everyone's stories on here and it has given me a lot of courage to do this. I know this is just the beginning and it's going to be a process.