I feel comfortable being the way I am.Huge relief and a feeling of peace. Thing is my rather conservative ''full of wisdom'' grandmother does not know I am gay as of yet.And neither does her other son(my uncle). Tired of hearing about them speaking about gays (not always in a positive light I might add).I usually say something along the lines of ''people should be accepted the way they are'' or ''I have a gay friend and have no problems with it''.But finally feel brave enough to come out in case the topic is brought up again. I am emotionally preparing myself for whatever response I might get.I honestly feel that I will be able to handle it considering all of what I had to put up with my dad previously. As for my dad I have realized that a more analytical and detached approach is necessary.Obviously I care about him.But in the end the whole family knows that it is impossible to have a proper relationship with him. PS Feeling loads better and feel I have made some decent progress in the acceptance stage.
