I hate that I'm still questioning. I just want to know who the hell I am! I've already tried "getting to know myself" and all that jazz. It hasn't worked! I'm sick of being in this damn closet and I refuse to come out as questioning. It just seems very pathetic to come out as questioning. I think I'm going to start online dating when I'm eighteen because there's no way in hell I'll figure myself out if I don't date anyone. I know that it's way safer to date people I know in real life, but there's no way I will meet a girl in real life until I'm out. And I can't be out if I don't know who the hell I am!
Give yourself some time to figure out. I know it's hard when you want to know it soo badly but there's no way when you're not ready. And you don't have to come out. There's no time pressure!!!
I've been questioning since I was fourteen! That is way too long! I just hate myself! I know there's no rush to come out, but I'm sick of hiding myself and feeling lonely.
That's quite a long time. Maybe you have to accept that you're questioning? That's a very bad advice.....
I just can't accept being questioning. When I was fifteen I even came out as bi just to avoid being closeted and questioning. I know that's a mistake, but I've been desperate to know since I was fourteen. I originally came out as gay because that's what I felt I was, but no one believed me. They just told me that it was just a phase. I even came out to my ex boyfriend as gay to make him feel better about my lack of attraction to him, but he just laughed at me. Then he started making some stupid lesbian sex jokes. After all that crap I just started questioning like crazy and developed an OCD obsession with my sexuality(what a lot of people call HOCD.)
Don't let stupid non-believing people affect you. Listen to just nobody else as yourself when it comes to things like sexuality. Only you can find the answer. It doesn't matter what they're saying. It does matter how you feel. And when they can't believe you.....they aren't worth to be trusted. Sounds a bit harsh but self-protection is very important.
I'm just not a very thick skinned person. The main reason they affected me was because they triggered a stupid OCD obsession. I now avoid telling people my sexuality because I'm afraid that they'll question me and trigger my OCD. That's why I preferred to come out as bi. Way more people believed me when I came out as bi because I look femme and kind of alternative/open minded.
That's stupid. Some people are so superficial! But yea, I also get easiyl affected by any kind of critics although I understand it. One question, what exactly is OCD?
OCD is when you get very bad worries and obsessions. Some people might be worried about germs, so they might wash their hands for hours to get rid of that worry. Another common obsession is being worried about leaving your house unlocked. Then there's HOCD, being obsessed with the possibility that you're another sexuality. It usually involves straight guys who accidently watch gay porn and worry about that making them gay. In my case it's worrying about being bi, straight or never knowing my sexuality. A lot of people don't think it's necessary to give HOCD a seperate label. I think it's a good idea because most HOCD stories are pretty much the same.
Oh ok. Thanks Sometimes I'm afraid it's "just a phase". I hope not. I'm happy with this. Most of the time. Hope time will tell
We both sound like we're going through the same fears and issues like I can relate to almost everything you obsess about. Sigh I have it too and it's like the worst feeling on this planet and I know this is OCD because I have another obsession too but now I've developed sexuality obsessions and it's crap. Just be aware that you're not alone on this.
