Hi, I am a 19 year old girl and I just started college this past year. Over the course of this year I have made many close friends, one being a lesbian. I have questioned my sexuality before but kinda just put it to the side and it didn't feel too serious. I am really close to her and she tells me about her relationships and everything and i just became curious. I been thinking more and more into of me being gay over the course of this year and many things just make sense. I get super nervous around boys that i can barely talk to them and frankly it feels awkward. I have never had a boyfriend or even kissed a boy, and I am still physically attracted to them. Like if i ever had the chance i would kiss one, but I have such an easier time talking to girls and slowly i am finding them more and more attractive. Right now I could not picture myself dating a boy, but i could picture myself marrying one, but i could also picture myself dating a girl right now, but not marrying her. I feel like i am slowly coming to terms that I am gay and i just need to get out of the mindset that i am not going to marry a man just because that is what i am in society terms supposed to do, but i am also scared that this is just a college phase. I could really use some advice right now if anyone can help.
Hello, I feel what you are feeling too in a way. The thought of marrying another man is...well, a lot to handle with what society has us think is 'correct' today. It could just be a phase, but it might not? It's never to late to try things. Remember, do what makes YOU happy, not what makes others pleased. Take care <3
