i cut myself

Well you're at the best place to be.
Everyone here is so helpful.

Im sorry about what you're going through.
And i know cutting yourself seems like a release and that you're in control of your life,
but there are better things to overcome this.

What do you think has sparked your depression?

Advisors can be found here at the 9th post.

(Sorry i don't have a direct link)
Try and contact one.

 

I'll give you what advice I can. Try to find another release for your frustration. You have to find ways of coping with stress in everyday situations. I used to do martial arts, which was a great way to relieve stress. You could try any kind of exercise, just to let out your energy.
Depression can e really difficult to cope with. If nothing else, try to find something positive in your life that's worth holding on to. Think to the future. You're 15 years old, finish high school. Get a taste of college life. Don't end your life before you've experienced it. I understand you may be feeling hopeless or distraught, but depression never lasts. Moods always change. It's always darkest before the dawn.
I'd recommend talking to Asteroid or Lex, they've both given me some great advice.

 

Oh wow. I'd seek professional help ASAP. Are you cutting horizontally or vertically? I had a friend who would etch designs in his skin. Self-loathing with creativity? I couldn't believe it. But seriously, you need help bad, and the Internet can be a very iffy place to find that help. If you cut the wrong way or wrong place, you could be dead. Get HELP!

 

Hey Spencer. I too use to cut myself which landed me trips to hospital as well as a mental health hospital and has left lasting scars on my skin. I used to be horribly depressed. I think the best thing for you to do is tell your parents and consult a therapist. Therapy can be very healing and help you realize what really is eating at you. I think you should do this immediately, what you are doing is self-destruction and unhealthy. Please talk with someone.

 

Please get help. Whatever problems you are going through are only temporary. You have your whole life ahead of you. It is really hard being a gay teenager (trust me I know). Sometimes I feel really depressed and unhappy, but I know that taking it out on myself is not the answer. Do you have access to a therapist or counselor? If not, try to think about what might be bothering you yourself. Try to change something in your life to make you feel better.

 

Hey Spence.

I'm really sorry that you feel there is no other way to cope other then to cut yourself. If you feel a need to cut yourself, then yes, I would take that as a sign that your depression is coming back. I am glad you have recognised this. It makes the next few things I have to say seem a little easier to do.

Firstly, I want you to go and see your school counsellor. If you cannot see them, go and talk to your parents. You do not have to tell them everything, but it is not an unreasonable request to ask for them to book you into a few sessions with a psychologist or a counsellor/youth worker.

If you could explain to us why you think your depression is coming back that would help a bit with us being able to give you some more suggestions as to how we can help you.

Next time you get the urge to cut yourself, remove yourself from the vicinity of any sharp objects, and do something else. If you're in your room, go out into the lounge and watch tv with your parents. If you're in the kitchen, go play computer for a while. If you feel you can't do this, go outside and go for a run or a walk until you feel you are okay. Another thing that helps is to just SCREAM at the top of your lungs into a pillow or to go outside and just let it all out. Listen to music very very loudly. Write how you feel. Do something that takes your mind off the urge to cut.

I hope this helps, and I seriously want you to go see a counsellor or a psychologist if you can. The earlier you get help for depression, the better off you are.

 

because it is so late, im going to give you short advice now and more later. im going to make it into a list, because.

a) dont cut. i used to, it really sucks afterwards
b) i know exactly how you feel. at least about the person who helped you.
c) its good that you recognized what is going on
d) i would like to talk to you sometime, one-on-one. info is in my profile

 

Hi Spencer. I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling down. I can relate - as I think many of us can. What you have to remember is that there are LOTS of things you can do to help yourself feel better and deal with the pain that you're dealing with WITHOUT cutting yourself. It's like trying to correct a wrong with another wrong. It doesn't work.

As Vampyrecat has suggested, ask for help. Do it. You might feel afraid or embarassed, but that will pass. And when you get past that, and start to deal with what is bothering you, you'll start to feel A LOT better! And if you can start to feel better, you will no longer need to resort to cutting.

Get some help. I did. Lots of other people have. There's no shame in asking for help. And in the long run you'll be much better off if you do!

 

I know you will be tired of hearing this but I'm going to say it anyways.
Cutting isn't the answer, I know from experience, I have nerve damage in my left arm because of it.
Talking does help, it may not seem like it at first but it does.
Reach out to your parents even if you do feel you are drifting from them, or a teacher, someone you trust.
Talk to them about everything you feel, it helps to get everything off your chest then they can start helping you. (*hug*)
Hope you take the advice into consideration.

 

This is something I've never done, but I've thought about it. A lot. And depression is a tough thing, but there's always hope. I just want to put this organization out there -- twloha.com To Write Love on Her Arms. It's a non-profit organization that's trying to spread hope, and love to those who truly need it.

Hope it helps, at least a little bit.

 

Spence, been there myself. I was a secret cutter only doing it above my sleeve and under my pants. It wasnt for attentio like some wrist cutters. Anyways I know what it's like. What your trying to do and what I was trying to do is give yourself some physical pain to distract you from your emotional pain. And trust me it does for a while anyways. The best thing to do right now is stop looking for advice here because non of us can really help you. We can only help you help yourself. You need to seek help. A school councilor is your best bet right now. Depression sucks I had it for over a year and I can tell you it turned my life 180 degrees. I wish i could go back and seek help myself when I really needed it.

 

I really wish I could say more to help you out here but maybe you should consider talking to a therapist or someone that could help you talk out your problems...

 

Does your school have a nurse? In my experience they are always willing to talk if a student needs help and they usaually have access to many of the same resources as a conselour.

 

I think everyone here is correct in what they said, but I think that Ballet Beauty hit it spot on. Try doing things to distract yourself. Running and listening to music is the best way, I believe. It may sound nerdy, but whenever I was bored, I would eat and play chess.

Lately, I have been pulling 50 and 60 hour weeks at the job, and to handle the stress, I try to run as much as I can. And sometimes I just crank up the iPod as loud as I can tolerate and lay down at night.


Best wishes, Spencer.