So strange turn of events. So my friend becomes more flirty with me...so I play along. We call each other nicknames. He talked about the size of his dick to me. Wasn't sure if he was bullshitting. When I made a beet potato salad for a house party...he says "What makes it pink?"...and he stares down and my crotch and back up....I look at him and do the same....and I was like.....I'm black.....its looks like the color of my forearm. So I had some strong hints there. Then, on Facebook...I was talking about peanuts very suggestively....but I know he sounded repulsed about talking about my nuts. ANd then tonight.....when he asked me if I wanted a shot....he asked if I wanted a Wet Pussy or a Big Dick...I mean Fireball. Very confusing and I know he's just messing with me. I really just want to tell him I'm bi and I have the strong feeling he knows without me telling him, but afraid to tell him just because I don't wanna let out that I fallen for him....even though I know it won't work(even as a fling)...cuz he is straight(as far as I know) and engaged. I I ALMOST came out to another friend cuz I was really on the verge of crying. When I got home...I let it all out. I know I need to accept and love myself....I just feel alone cuz I don't fell like I know anyone who really understands me personally.
