That weird "in-between" stage...?

Yep. It sucks. I am still not out to most of my high school classmates. I am out to all family save 2 aunts and a cousin(male). College friends all know. It's kind of 50/50, but I know that if anyone gives me a hard time I can send the ally posse after them. I have probably about a dozen strong ones I know now.

 

None of my family knows. I dont think they suspect of my gayness.
It feels rather lonely and isolating.

7 years ago i used to hang out at a gay club in southern Ontario. Made a couple of gay friends. I came out to them and people there.

 

Give it time.

When you joined this forum a few short months ago you didn't even think you would be able to come out to yourself, never mind anyone else. Now look at how far you have come. Be proud of what you have achieved in a very short space of time.

I know you are impatient to complete the jigsaw and that's understandable as time doesn't stand still, but don't push yourself too hard. I think you have made great progress and you just need to gain more confidence in yourself and others.

The main thing is to tell the important people (you've done that) - everyone else can wait until you are good and ready.

 

I'm currently in this stage now :/

But "living a lie" part I had do my entire life, cuz you know, being Autistic is bad.

We'll get through it, I promise!

 

I'm going through that too , most people on my job think I'm straight and have a boyfriend , when in reality I'm single and looking for a girlfriend . I hate every second of this and it feels like lying and I feel so terrible for not telling them the truth , but deep down I know not all of them can handle the truth .