I Told Someone

I belong to this youth group that basically preaches accepting differences. We don't hate on anyone because of race, sexuality, disability, etc. I honestly felt so accepted. And today we had a meeting and there's this one girl I've grown to be friends with.

So I saw her the day earlier at the airport for an Honor Flight thing, and before that I was sitting on the ground. My parents and extended family had chairs. I decided to open up my blogging site and a picture of two girls kissing pops up. Quickly I jumped to hide it.

I told her this. And then I said, "I was totally freaking out. 'Cause I'm pretty gay."

That may not seem like a big deal for me to say, but for me it was HUGE. I'd never said aloud to someone that wasn't one of my best friends (who are part of the lgbt community). Now I feel confused- like I'm committing to something. Obviously, being gay isn't something you just commit to, it just happens. I just am. I just can't shake off this weird feeling.