When did you know?

As a kid I was always more curious about men than women, and I displayed many stereotypically "girly" traits (I would wear dresses, play with barbies, etc.). But I grew out of all that stuff when I was still young, developed more stereotypically masculine interests, and I even had crushes on girls. I never knew that I would grow up and want to be with a man.

The first time I ever remember feeling attracted to a man was when I was 11, but I didn't realize what I was feeling. I honestly thought that this feeling I had for men was just curiosity, and the thought that this "curiosity" might have something to do with my sexual orientation never even crossed my mind. I still just assumed that I was straight and would end up with a woman someday.

I realized I was gay when I was 14. I was talking with one of my friends and he said something that indirectly revealed to me that this "curiosity" I had for men wasn't curiosity, but sexual attraction. At first I was confused, because growing up, everyone always told me that I would eventually find myself sexually attracted to women, so I thought there was something wrong with me. But after sitting down, thinking about it, and connecting the dots, I realized that having these feelings towards men and not women made me gay.

 

I actually realized it when I was 16. I got turned on while reading gay fanfiction. I hate admitting this, but at the same time, it's kind of funny.

 

When I had too many "girl-crushes" to deny that I wasn't completely straight anymore.

 

I knew around the 4th or 5th grade when I fell in love with my best friend he is all I could think of !! The girls we ok but the boys were OMG I want to see that naked ,I did not know what I would have done with it but I like to see . even growing up girls never really did anything for me but I would get excited ever time a good looking guy would walk by !!

 

Grade 9 when I had my first actual crush and it was on a girl. Then a little later I had a girlfriend. But I knew I was attracted to guys as well? Basically I figured I didn't really care about a person's gender and I was completely right. Didn't stop the rest of my class from deciding I was a lesbian and then when I dated a guy going "oh so you're straight now?" which resulted in a literal headdesk.

Before grade 9 I didn't really understand the whole liking people thing.. Like I'd find some people somewhat attractive but nothing special so yeah, I just didn't get it lol

 

When I had crushes on boys. And masturbated about them.

 

Well. I didn't even start developing attractions towards people until High School began. I suppose I was a bit of a late bloomer. Those were the easy days where all I really focused on was the games I played and the interests I had. Not a care in the world.

Then I started crushing on a boy who sat in my Freshman English class. I started admiring his body, having fantasies about being in bed with him, and then I realized that I had attractions towards males. Sophomore year, I started crushing on pretty much every boy I befriended. Not a pretty moment for me.

But yeah. It just kinda happened. My mind cannot comprehend having sexual attractions towards females, because being gay is all I know.

 

I don't think I realized I was gay until the summer before my freshmen year of college. I was taking an intensive Russian course at UCLA and I became friends with this really cool guy in class. One of our mutual friends pointed out that we had a bromance, but I didn't think anything of it until I started to realize I was actually sad the days I couldn't hangout with him after class. So then I was like I might actually have deeper feeling for him. But then I just dropped it because he was straight and we went our separate ways.

During that same time was the first time I watched gay porn, just out of curiosity, and I liked it just as much as straight porn. I didn't actually come to terms with being gay until recently though.

 

Well I used to be attracted solely to girls. I had my first crush when I was 12. However I only ever had romantic feelings towards girls and never felt anything sexual towards anyone. I had always assumed that I would either develop sexual feelings as I got older or was asexual or demisexual. It wasn't until I was about 14 or so that I had developed any sort of sexual feelings (I guess I'm a bit of a late bloomer) and what made it awkward was that I only felt them towards guys. I ended up thinking I was bisexual, but was just going to stay closeted so that I could have a "normal life" and a "normal family". Once my junior year started, my attraction towards the opposite sex disappeared and was replaced by the same sex. It wasn't until a few months later when I realized that these romantic feelings I felt in middle school were just made up in my mind and that I was repressing who I really was.

 

I realised I wasn't straight when I was 17 and I went through a bi phase for a couple of years but I was 19, maybe even close to 20 when I realised that I was actually gay. In hindsight I should have realised a lot earlier because thinking about it I know I had small crushes on girls I knew at school and stuff but not so much guys but yeah I've only known what my actual sexuality was for a year and a half or so maybe a bit less

 

My story consists of me realizing I wasn't straight and so I slapped an asexual label on myself because my young self was like If I don't love girls than I don't have any sexual attraction. That was at 16 I realized that and 4 years later is when I realized that I liked men, and so at 20 I realized I wasn't asexual I was gay.

 

I was 11 when I realised I was gay and made it official to myself this year. I was always a misfit to all the others around me. :lol:

 

The first time I remember being attracted to another boy was probably first grade. There was a boy who played soccer on my team who was really cocky and liked to flex his biceps. I was also attracted to a couple professional wrestlers and rock stars, who I practically drooled over in my head. I first admitted to myself I was bisexual in high school in my journal. I've still only told one person in my life though :-/ and haven't been with a guy yet.

 

I identified as 'straight' throughout college but started having serious doubts about that since I was never drawn to men. So, I started wondering if I was asexual. My friends speculated that I would end up with a girlfriend but I brushed it off.

Took me a few years and a crush to realize that I have had a thing for women all along. I just wasn't ready to see it or accept it. Now that I understand, I feel much lighter :icon_bigg

 

Um, like september of this year? That's when I came out to myself. I had liked girls since maybe 11 or 12. I'm nearly 14 btw.

 

I remember being attracted to a girl for the first time when I was 11 and it just felt really natural. I don't know why. It didn't seem weird and I wasn't shocked or bothered or anything.

 

I guess I just realized I act the same around certain guys as I do around girls I find attractive, and realized I have pretty much the same feelings for them both. I didn't really know until a few months ago, but I was questioning for a couple of years.

 

I guess I knew since I was maybe 10 years old. Growing up I had crushes on both boys and girls, and somehow it didn't feel weird to me at all. It wasn't until I was 15 and fell in love for the first time ,with a girl, that I started thinking about labels and coming out. I never did, but that's another story.

 

Yay story time!~
Ok, so when I was younger (like 3rd grade) I began having fantasies about me saving like princess and getting kisses from them. Well ever since I was in pre-k ALL of my friends (except 2 girls but they WERE tomboys) were guys. I just was socially awkward around girls since before I could remember.... which sucked because all of my cousins are girls. I got my first true crush in 4th grade on my now current girlfriend. So I guess my young elementary years.

(Being in the girls locker-room now doesnt help me... too many "distractions")